i can't stand myself any more. I KEEP SLACKING!! argh..
let me start with what i did today..
watched:
1) Ice Age 2
2) Fearless (huo yuan jia)
3) Goong episode 17- 21
there goes my whole day..
muahahha..
but i must say last day of school, which was last week, was quite fun. and also the day after. last day of school did PA duty for end of year celebrations, and went totally havoc.. quite siao that day cuz everyone was quite high.. hehe+)
the next day was off in lieu, and i went to kPox with xingyu, cindy, and karen. sorry shuyu!! really sorry about pangseh-ing you.. sorry!!
anyways, i'm temporary handphoneless, so don't sms or call me unnecessarily. using my old pok phone now, which does not have all the contact numbers, sadly.. yeap..
goong still rocks my world. =)
10:46 PM
part B
finally remembered what i wanted to blog about- the laptop i'm using now. my mom was complaining that i use her laptop with 'full force', proven by the 2 of the keys(from the keyboard) that has broke and fallen off. anyways, not my fault. hahax. sometimes i just get too agitated and start banging on the keyboard. like now. cuz its my third time typing the same old words. because my comp keep hanging!
anyways, really wish that the sadness epidemic will be over soon. everyone's just so frustrated and sad these few days, including myself. not sure if i still can remain the pillar of strength and hope. woah. like i very great. being an SL is not just about being high and enthusiatic during practices. its about ALOT of other things. which you can't even imagine. (hey this ryhmes)
goong rocks. simply loving it=)
12:26 AM
(part A)
just came back from 'doing' my favourite hobby not long ago. shopping rocks the world.
was actually feeling very happy until someone came to talk to me. and spoiled my mood. argh. totally toot.
and made me forget what i wanna blog about. shit. i really can't remember what i wanted to write. tootz. shall fill in later, if i still have the mood.
9:24 PM
feeling very shitty now. why is everyone bombarding me with sarcastic remarks? i don't need them right now. what i need seriously are words of encouragement, so stop diao-ing me with unnecessary stuffs k. just shuddup.
9:39 PM
not blogging for no reason this time round. really have alot to say today.
today was a sucky day. bomb after bomb, shock after shock, sobs followed by tears. was crying like a baby by the second period. at first when i looked at my paper, i was utterly shocked. couldn't believe my eyes. i really did studied, how come its still like that? not to worry, i'm not those who complains over not getting a B or A. i'm talking about passing. i jus want to have a more than borderline pass. at least give me a D or something. but, whatever. after that shock, miss lee came over and talked to me. i really really couldn't take it anymore. i swear, i really really did studied hard for econs. somehow, my brain wasn't meant to think in the econs way i guess.
once i started, i couldn't stop at all. it continued all the way till lunch. and even after lunch. those were tears of disappointment, nothing else. why can't it be tears of happiness? didn't even want to face my bio paper. and maths paper. same for chem. for each paper i took back(except bio, which yuwei took for me), i faced them down, not daring to look at the scores. after preparing for the worst, i took a deep breath and scanned the marks.
what i couldn't stand was that hissing sound that some people like to make when they get back their papers. no offence, but i jus hope those people will jus keep their mouth shut, and keep ur happiness inside ur heart for that moment. celebration can come later when everyone is feeling better. yah, u have good grades, but what about basic sensitivity towards others? watery eyes all around and there u are hissing.. for a mo i felt molten lava in myself.
the whole day was dark and grey. even the skies seem to be crying for me. the society and its horrible mindset, as xingyu has said, is jus too much. no good grades, no good future. when can we ever get out of this unhealthy lifestyle? education. bane or boon? seriously, MOE should revise and attempt this essay.
shall stop reproaching myself. i know i have tried my very best. though the society doesn't award efforts, but i do.
10:45 PM
actually i am tired enough. average number of hours of sleep i get per day is like 4? which is super ALOT. However, i still insisted on blogging because i suddenly have this strong urge to say something, no offence. The self centred nature of humans are just so difficult to understand. Is sharing that difficult? Is it true that everyone puts themselves in the first place, right infront of anyone else? hai~ too bad. because of this human nature, we have just depend on ourselves, and no other people.
kind of sucks cause i have to start from scratch. kind of sucks because i get the feeling i'm in this alone. all alone. kind of sucks because i am stuck with selfish, self-centred people. kind of sucks because life jus sucks.
1:06 AM
i just realise i'm the few ones left on the shelf.. AARGH!!! lol.. anyway, these few days very crazy over gong OST. very nice the songs. but the lyrics very hard to learn nia. don't know a single meaning.
anyway, had PW today. dieded. seems like we have to change all our slides. what a headache. hai~
stupid instructor is making my life very terrible. wad de lar.. URGH. *complains* btw, i realise CO people can complain very well. including fatimah yati even. lol..
blogging for the sake of blogging. just like i'm going to school for the sake of attendance. if not...
thinking and thinking, exactly who we are, how we feel.
9:25 PM
first of all, a very huge sorry to deco committee people. haiz. sorry i overslept! arghhh..super guilty. treat yall to milo someday! =X
anyways, today was NJC open house. yeap, of course we were showcasing our cca too. helped out at Chinese Orchestra(CO) booth all the while. when i weren't there, i would be walking around with my dearest juniors, or even some sec4s whom i don't know. so good of me eh..=.='''
recently there has been many cases of communication breakdown with my friends. the most recent one that i discovered was jason wishing me happy birthday on 4th October, when my birthday is on 5th June. heh. i know why though. i wrote on 4th Oct wishing myself happy birthday because i went crazy that day after promos. lol. me and xingyu made a deal to blog a super long and mad entry. yeap, so thats one.
another incident was jus a few days ago. involving me and my 2 sisters. sister1 asked me what time did girlA tell the rest of the sisters to report. to double confirm the time, i asked sister2. and i told sister1 the time after that. then, me and sister2 were chatting, so i say sister1 and girlA got 'com breakdown', meaning communication breakdown. then sister2 asked sister1 whether his com(meaning computer) spoil izit. sister1 found it weird, and so came to tell me his comp is not spoilt.
sister1: "sister2 say u say i say my com spoil"
me: "huh, where got?"
sister1: "don't believe ask sister2 urself"
me: "eh, sister1 say u say i say he say his comp spoil ah. did i say that?"
sister 2: "yah. you told me jus now sister1 and girlA comp spoil."
i was almost rolling on the floor(with laughter) at the end of the conversation. anyway, i think people who have finished reading the above para will be having many question marks in their brain now. kinda complicated and difficult to understand.
hmm. i jus read somewhere about something that made me think. think really hard. maybe thats the reason for me avoiding this topic too. haiz. mediocre looks.
10:07 PM
wahha..reached home like an hour ago. super tired. but super high.
anyways, got back my piano results. congratulations meichen, you have made it. though its only a pass, you did it. and though there were some nasty comments (i think due to the examiner being an Asian..hahax), but i'm satisfied. it's good to feel satisfied, afterall.
just now was super fun doing all the sai gang in school. hehe..i think i'm beginning to love njco exco. we rock man+) and sai gang rocks. i love all the after meetings dinner and all the talk crap session. though we do serious stuffs too. i love my sisters too!!~
oh yah, tomorrow is open day. dieded. shijun requested for the mic to be placed at my seat. dieded. i will jus get too nervous and dieded. hahhax. thats the end. oopz!~ woosh! my piano teacher rocks!! thanx to her! =D
music is my life. i think.
11:56 PM
Gemini Personality
Funny, brimming with life, full of ideas on one hand; inconsistent, capricious, superficial on the other. These are the twins that represent Gemini, a bundle of maddening contradictions. Be that as it may, they can be simply adorable creatures who love life and add zest and happiness to the world by being what they are. You are the life and soul of any party, amazing all and sundry with your apparent knowledge of everything. Although, it is easy for many to see through how you only skim the surface- it does not really bother you since you are going to give up your audience sooner than they are going to give you up. You may be a Jack-of-all-trades but it does not mean that you lack the ability to master skills; you just don't have the time, something else always seems to come up. You are versatile and have an amazing grasp of the subject you choose, although it may not interest you for long. With an active and creat ive mind, you can come up with the goods but it still requires great effort for you to follow them up. However, your talents, like you, need to be recognized and appreciation serves as encouragement.
Gemini Lover
You are best advised not to rush headlong into marriage; give adequate thought before popping the question. Libra, Aquarius, fellow Gemini, and Aries are best suited as life partners for Gemini. Make sure you feel very comfortable with the person you want to marry, before you commit yourself. Anyone romantically involved with you, even for a short while, is likely to find you affectionate, interesting, adventurous and a fun person to be with, but your fickle, almost uncaring attitude will manage to break many hearts before you finally settle down. You may be a notorious flirt, but it will be wonderful coming home to someone who has stood by you through all the highs and lows. Be sure that your partner shares your sense of humour. You are a fun person to be with. You get along with children like a house on fire. You will never stray if your family life is satisfying.
Gemini Professional
You will do well as linguists, teachers and writers. In fact any field, which allows you to come in contact with a variety of people, will hold interest for you. Some of the well-known media personalities are Geminis. Travel and marketing are other areas of work you can be satisfactorily involved in. It is easy for you to work for people who admire your capabilities and trust you with your work. A word of advice - don't be greedy about money and avoid speculation.
Gemini Traveller
You love to travel with close friends and family in tow to talk to. Mercury the ruling planet wants constant interaction and mental stimulation. You get easily bored so they prefer to go on a package tour. You would probably pack your cell phones, books, magazines and best sellers go where you go...just incase you are caught in a situation that has you doing nothing! Television sets are a must your room..you like to stay connected.
Gemini Teens
The Gemini girl is quick on the uptake, brilliant in patches. Represented by the Twins, she is apt to run in opposite directions. Her heart may want peace, but her mind needs stimulation. Smart and witty, she has loads of friends and the phone will never stop ringing. Her communication skills are highly developed and her letters are usually masterpieces. The Gemini lass needs a host of hobbies to keep her occupied, which is why she is constantly engaged in everything from aerobics to philosophy. Though she loves to talk and gossip, she usually excels at studies. And she does that without trying hard too hard. She enjoys sports like swimming. She may also be involved in athletics, burning off the excess energy.
He is a smart and likeable young man, who charms everyone with his ready wit and humour. Though he is not a born leader, he always participates in group activity -- he loves people. He generally lacks in consistency and flits from one thing to the next. A variety of things capture his imagination, be it chess, trivia or computer games. The chief dangers are a lack of patience and an unwillingness to persist until a thing is thoroughly mastered. He sometimes glib-talks, simply skimming over a subject without a thorough understanding. He is a born charmer and can leave a group enthralled with his talk. He may find his calling as a politician or a public servant. However, he may change his mind a hundred times about his future career.
Gemini Well Being
Gemini's have supple bodies and a good bone structure. You are muscular and athletic.? You have a cheerful face and it is very easy to detect signs of anxiety, tension or unhappiness in you. Your face gives away what you might try to hide behind wit and humour. Gemini's also rarely put on extra weight. The rib cage, shoulders, arms and fingers are vulnerable to accidents, while some of you may suffer from bronchitis and asthma. You are particularly wary of physical pain and would go that extra length to avoid any unpleasant situations. Your busy lifestyle is often the cause of your problems. You are frequently involved with more than one task at a time. If you don't slow down and find time to take care of yourself, your health is likely to suffer. You must take time out to rest and relax as your hyperactivity can leave you feeling stressed and anxious, so it is essential that you take steps to bring your stress level down. Drinking chamomile tea with milk before bed will soothe your nerves and help you relax and sleep well. You could try Yoga as a remedy for your problems. It would calm your nerves, help you slow down and improve your concentration.
Gemini Luck
Pearl grey, light green and silver are lucky colours. While selecting jewellery with precious stones, aquamarine your lucky stone stands foremost, surrounded by diamonds would also be beneficial. Wednesday is a good day for Geminis. The lucky number is five. Mercury is your ruler and your element is air.
10:08 PM