sometimes i think i really think too much. but i think i really cannot stop myself from thinking. lols. so mao dun.
anyway my seamonkeys are really erm, looking like madam mosquito's child. yeww..
my myanmar student is really adorable. and i think she's really pretty! and not totally hopeless(like my other kid).
oh wells, my manager asked for me today after work, but i disappeared upon seeing that he's not there.(advice from fellow colleagues) wonder whats happening? but should be because me and kl really made it damn obvious that we wanna leave the place le. oh no.
i jus got suan-ed by this person. if i know it i wouldn't have initiated the converse. yucks. hello, who gave in so much previously loh, who is the one who is like causing all the troubles?? please reflect.
shit. i think i really starting to feel it. that i'm falling for someone! ahhhhhh!
11:47 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
i realise its really really gonna be june soon. VERY SOON.
people ask me, why am i so hard on myself? working and slogging away so hard and hardly taking any rest at all. i just feel i'm born to be like this. and born to be totally not dependent on my parents for money. yay =X
took a halfday today went to ntu, while it was cats and dogs-ing. like thunderstorm. EVERY TIME I SETTLE UNI STUFFS SURE THUNDERSTORM! tian ar!
wells, today had driving again. everytime when i go for driving, there's bound to be something interesting. did lane change and right turn today and my head and eyes never stopped turning/rolling for a moment! so busy please! okies maybe not used to it. oh man. and the first right turn i did on the roads, i nearly cause an accident at the road junction. jus cuz my car stalled while i was turning halfway. uh oh. thats really bad. plus i didnt really understand the instructor cuz he speaks weirdly. as in he was speaking to me in english, but i know he prefers to speak in mandarin. lols.
then after the lesson, i met this guy from nj who looked really familiar. and i think he's someone i went for maldives trip with. lols. he asked how's my uni stuff. i told him blah blah blah and asked him back how's his. he told me he got into some engine then this year he reapply while in ns and got into med, but he is going to reapply for some other course. i'm like =.=. dots..ok i still cant remember his name. shoots. i have stm.
i realise by doing all these, i'm just running away, escaping.
11:52 PM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
ahhh! i'm eating chocs now! no wonder the ah pek thinks i'm pregnant.
anyway today was quite fun! cuz went out for community integration with patients! though fun but it's stressful and yikess.
then went jp with kl and shopp shopp shopp! cuz i wanted to buy the seamonkey mixture. just added the purifier a minute ago and i'm hoping that it'll be successul. lolx.
bought a top and really enjoyed today. though today my time bomb ticked and i really felt urghhh like killing someone. bleahx.
and i realise i'm really affected by that small little things that you do.
11:31 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
today's such an eventful day.
had the southern hemisphere flu vaccine after lunch and mine jus bled like more than it is suppose to. (??!) whereas my colleague's one didn't have any blood. an hour after the vaccine, which was the peak period of my afternoon schedule, my hand turned numb and i couldn't really lift it up.
okays so this numbness actually stayed but it got a little better lah. and i went for driving lesson and met jo lai who just came back from london?? wells. this instructor he wanted me to change gear while turning, so my hands gotta be so firm yeah. that's so challenging please! then the instructor asked me if i am a teacher. i felt so puzzled, so i asked him what made him think that way. and he said, i look like a PE TEACHER. OMTTT...
then on the way back on the bus, this ah pek gave up his seat to me. i'm like WHATT?! hahax. prolly my tummy too much fats so too big and he thought i'm pregnant.
so what am i? a pregnant pe teacher?
11:03 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
oh man. i think i'm always so negative. roar! i must be more positive and learn to cherish what i have now!
alritess. today's work was. so so, crazy again. wearing the idiotic workbelt. and i think i'm gonna stop wearing that soon. cuz me and another colleague have evil plans this coming june. HAHA.
today was kind of tired cuz i think i have rested too many days!
and i wanna go shopping but first of all, money money come!!
anyone has jobs to recommend?
11:44 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
ok.
immediately after i said hello, i regretted. i suck.
yuck.
12:32 AM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
woah. a feeling of relief. cuz i jus accepted my course. relief and lost actually.
went shopping with xingyu just now. i really feel like going back to school. hahahhax. like a crazy looking at bags, clothes, PENCIL CASES, FILES, ERASERS, NOTEBOOKS. but they were kinda spastic lah..
and so not looking forward to tuesday. roar.
haiz. all my friends are going all over the place. uk, aust, nus. sigh. i'm so gonna miss them. and miss christmas celebration. sobx. suddenly so sad. i'm gonna be all alone ='(
the weather is so ultra hot. toot. i wanna go aircon aircon place!
11:32 PM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
today was super hectic. until...
woah i couldn't breathe. firstly was due to this workbelt which made us look like ninjas and turtles and like idiots. must really take a 'cool' picture of myself in that workbelt. superb! secondly, my supervisor wasn't around and suddenly i had an influx of 5 patients and i dunno how to handle SO MANY at one go. cuz OT is more like specialised and different treatment for each patient and i'm like =X =S >.<
ok then my sup returned like after an hour. when the patients started clearing. goodness what a day!
but morning was kind of slack. and we were like discussing about how we look like in our workbelts. and tony gave some really hilarious comments, which reminded me of dr colin yesterday cuz me and kailin were like laughing at dr colin's super-ultra-noone bothers to catch-lame jokes. lolx. and dr andrew kept pointing at me and asking me if i was going bungee or parachuting. how bad is that??
i can't imagine i gotta wear that for a month more. or more than that.
my sis always quarrels with her bf for some reason and i think this kinda relationship is so tiring. i think a more relaxing one with more jokes and fun would be better=) ok random. jus some random thoughts.
11:36 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
life is a struggle.
lolx.
okies, quoting from someone, cuz i think it's so true.
struggling to keep myself away from temptations, from dying of boredom, from becoming a autistic young adult.
and of course, struggling with the usual problems faced at home, with friends and with my mind from thinking about that shit. lolx.
sometimes i just feel that everyone is so selfish. including me of course. but, everyone needs a listening ear, am i right?
11:52 PM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
oh man. an ex patient of mine is suspected to have tb. im dead. im on the list for contact tracing. and i'm super worried i'll get it. moreover i didn't take BCG!! ARGH!
okies, i hope im just being paranoid and nothing else.
12:25 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
the reverse of today's date will be my birthday. HAH.
anyway, suddenly feeling emo again. had a chat with a colleague today and she's from myanmar. just so happen the recent mishap happened in her hometown. and she told me, she tried contacting everyone; her father, mother, siblings, aunt, and even friends. and none of them could be contacted. her eyes seemed so sad while she spoke, and the most triggering line from her was "I just hope to hear just one of their voices. With that I will feel at least some assurance. Now I don't even know what really has happened."
i nearly cried with that.
imagine losing ALL your loved ones overnight. your own family and closest friends. while you are all alone in a foreign land. and you can't travel back yet. omt. and she's really a very nice lady. someone who has helped me throughout since the first day i stepped into st luke's as a TA.
i really pray hard for her. and all her fellow countrymen. haiz. i wish i can do something to help.
life's such a sad episode.
11:26 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
woah super depressed.
i forgot all my college's work le. thats so very bad!! imagine all of us mugged so hard just for that few As on our certs, and now, when i ask, no one actually was able to help with all that syllabus stuff. no one remembers anything about vectors, inorg chem, graphing yada yada.
does this show the failure of the education system? i think this long vacation is turning us all into idiots. i admit i'm one now. i felt like an idiot unable to ans any of those critical and basic questions. and i wondered how the army guys are gonna cope with school after the 2 yrs 'vacation'. even more idiotic then the girls? lolx.
rarr! i feel so useless. yikess.
just realise i will be going to china in 3 yrs' time. as in this fate is more or less settled. i think lady luck is really not on my side. like tong ren bu tong ming or something. =XX
10:39 PM
Friday, May 02, 2008
okie dokie.
i love to nudge pple on msn. hahax. sometimes i really wonder, do crappy converse make pple think in another perspective? because it did change me. hahax. i think i'm not sounding like a human now. hahax. too tired.
went club on wed, it was an eye opener for me. okies im a noob lar k. hahax. but really things that happen in the dark... you won't see them out of club can. lolx. its not anything indecent fyi. and some kid just refuse to tell me some things. i really wanna strangle him. hahax.
then reached home at about 4 plus. slept at 5 plus. then woke up at 9 cuz my cousin reached my house le. lolx. den woke up and went sentosa. omt i really feel like a zombie. and i sentosa-ed all the way till evening time and i was under the umbrella all the while. hAHHA. cuz my skin cant stand the midday sun! was splitting like toot! then went for dinner and reached home at about 9.30pm and was struggling to keep my eyes open to watch the 9pm show. and then slept at 11.
went to work again today. pretty much the same just that i felt like a zombie the first thing in the morning. and so i wore specs. then my ex sup saw and kept staring and staring. okie i look like a guai kia. so. anw. hahax. anw things didnt go so well towards the end of the day. and i realise i really hate cleaning.
and rushed home and prepared for lesson. siao. now i can hardly open my eyes. life is so packed up!
