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Saturday, March 31, 2007
i think i'm officially a gossipmonger..

lolx..i just got home like half an hour ago(it's now midnight), from a keesiao plus gossiping plus complain session. cuz my instructor said weird things today, which made me really scared. though i don't think i show it, but i'm really quite stressed out inside after all that has happened.

and yesterday i could actually slacked and talked from after school, 1.20pm till around 6.30pm..bleahx. and we actually moved off cuz of this bunch of weird people sitting in front of us. if not i guess we will just eat dinner there and go home at 8plus or something..

yeah..gossips are like, 24/7. oh man. i cant stand myself. i once had a new yr resolution not to speak ill of others, but now i'm like the root cause of everything that's going on. im evil now.

but serious, the talk just now was rather enriching. always enjoyed the sharing sessions with my fellow jie meis..really like talk about everything under the sun..and my problems.

life's getting better now, now that i know i have some friends to share my problems with. yeap. hope this lasts forever!! =)
12:00 AM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
shoooo shooooo!! typing this entry cuz i wanna get rid of the very emo and unhappy entry appearing right in front of me everytime i open my blog.

i realise life is really much easier when i take things easy and slow. yeap.

and my great friends around me are here to share the burden with me. thanx!

something i thought to be a joke happened today..

A: eh, wad ur timing?
B: huh?

wahahha..i laugh until i wanna die..think only some people know wad i'm talking about. and a few others who were there.

my randomness acted up again today. during chem and bio lecture, was abit random. and just now...

me: my eyes very suan1!
steph: huh. u drop lemon in ur eyes?
me: no leh. it's suan1 and it's gan1(dry). i dropped suan gan(lime) into my eyes.
steph (and me): diaox.-.-

diao-ed by my own randomness..=X

and realise there are people who read my blog and dun tag!! sobX!! tag lehh=S
10:55 PM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
actually i didn't want to come online today, but having so much mixed feelings(mostly negative), i really have to vent out. yeah, so this entry's gonna be very negative. don't read if you dislike negative stuffs k.. it's not meant to spoil your mood, but to make my mood better. i know i'm selfish.

firstly, i think i should live a more carefree life from now onwards. why should i care so much about attendance, about your skills and how you play, about discipline when i have repeatedly lost my temper over these matters? why should i make my life so bad? just because i hold this post called SL? why should i make a fool of myself at every sectionals? be called around like a dog and slogging so hard to please instructors? and be asked for opinions when in fact, everything has already be decided?

just because..

just because an SL is meant to slave for the orchestra. i used to not mind all these. even in secondary school, my section gives full support in everything that the exco works for. but now, it's like doing things with no purpose. for the sake of that award that every orchestra is eyeing at. doing things with no purpose, and with no results shown.

and the extremely strong emphasis on something today stung me real hard. and kept from smiling or rather, caused all the tears in my heart. maybe in a way it's to drive everyone to work harder, but i feel i'm like a fool. a fool smiling away as if nothing happened. though the impact is probably only on me. yar, only the fool feels it.

a short convo..
them: so how's it today?
me: huh? don't ask me.
them: huh don't ask you? you leader leh dun ask u?
me: dunno. i dunno anything.
them: huh?
one of them: today i p*** with yall leh, not good meh?
me: orh, u referring to this huh. good. u p*** of course good.

what else could i say?

to make my life better (it will definitely be better after tonight), i shall not bother about anything. if people refuse to think, for others or for themselves, then i can't help much too. this is not stress, it's just, i feel, a basic humane thing that one should have. to know your limits.

and to some people out there who's mouth just lingers around grades, grades, grades, study study study, please, please get a life. life's not just about grades. it's also knowing what is exactly wrong with you and changing for the better. it's not like we never told you. maybe it's plain forgetfulness, maybe it's plain ignorance. stop chanting out your results out and asking people 'eh, how did you score for _____?', even when you see people in tears after getting back the papers. and telling everyone about your GREAT GOALS. oh wow. and how you excitingly studied hard to achieve them.

ok i know i'm horried, but i'm just so tired of repeating myself SO MANY TIMES, but yet...sometimes learning your limits is very important.please do k

anyway, it's getting late and i'm tired. physically and mentally. physically tired due to stupid PE and the hunt for my lost fullscap, mentally tired from dealing with all the disgusting people. sorry if i have offended you, but it's just blogging out all my feelings.

i need a break.
10:22 PM
Monday, March 26, 2007
alas! got the laptop back from my mom..heh cuz she brought it out.

anyway, went JE then westmall(to get some things done with steph). then steph left to meet her friend. just after she left, my sis called me and asked me out for dinner! hahahx. so we went sakae sushi for dinner. =) then went shopping shopping carrying that big thing. urgh=X

and came home and ransacked this cupboard for my baby photos. muahaha.. cuz my 'albums' are like hidden all the way at the back, and those smaller 'albums' are in front. as i pulled the big album out, the small ones all toppled. =X and i just threw everything back into the cupboard.

when my mom came home, i confessed to her..
me: ma, gang cai wo nong luan ni de chu...>.<
mom: HUH. *face turning black or maybe red* na yi ge chu???
me: na ge fang zhao pian de chu..
mom: WHAT! wo jing tian gang hao shou shi zhe ge chu, ni jing tian jiu ba ta nong luan! *dunno to laugh or cry or to scold*

and this person just added me prease and i really find reading her symbols(on msn) so difficult. noe all those emoticons. argh. it takes me like a few good seconds to read a short sentence. and i'm wondering what level of trust i should put in to this person's words. as usual.

after looking at baby photos(for like 1 plus hour), i suddenly feel i should be a happy soul. all the fun memories that i can feel from those photos. yeap. suddenly feel so much love for my family..=D love ya!

not to be controlled by you. i'm the only one who tells me what to do.
10:14 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
OH MAN! i think my sister is in love/dating someone.

she's been like acting funnily for a few weeks. despite my very not good response (keeping muted) to her blabbering about dunno what also, since i wasn't listening. yeah. for a few weeks, she's been like reaching home late on friday nights. the friday that jus went past, she reached home like near 1am prease!! so late!! i noe cuz i was pia-ing tokyo juliet. heh. and she was not at all pissed(she usually will be super) when she saw me hogging onto the computer till like 2plus am..when she happily dried her hair and went to sleep.

and before that she told me she went to night safari (-.-) last last friday, and dunno dunno where last friday. and i'm clueless about where she went to this friday.

and guess what, she's not at home right now. just now she dressed up so pretty leh! and had makeup(which she unusually does) on. and she wore her heels that she unusually does wear cuz i think it's for 'special' occasion. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. HAHAx. and she took super long to doll up prease. until my mom said 'aiyah, hai2 mei2 you3 zhao4 dao4 jing4 zi3 po4 mah..' =/

so exciting..

so great if she gets married and u noe!! HAHAx.. this room is mine.. *evils* but seriously it's for her own good..=PpP see i so excited quickly type entry right after she stepped out of the house(after her super long dolling up time)..

and i thought i was gonna unravel some exciting news when i spotted someone's nick..and CHEY was my reaction when someone told me about it. CHEY CHEY CHEY.

finally finished tokyo juliet without skipping any parts. previously i watched once with alot of parts skipped. so decided to rewatch. yeap. and i finally finished it.

was talking to someone just now. and he fell asleep. i feel so not respected prease. HAHAx.. jkjk. maybe it's cool like THE BLOG says.

i remember i have something else to say, but can't rmb at the mo. will update if my 2seconds memory allows me to! =)

[update]
hahhax..continue my long long entry.

yeap a sms i received on friday which made me laugh like out loud in the canteen prease.
DR: i bought NAIL POLISH for scout! lol.
ME: huh? NAIL POLISH? *still thinking what scout* *oh! scout birthday! my tian..guy giving guy NAIL POLISH as bday present!*

me: eh, how come today cook potato?
my mom: orh, cuz nothing to cook..
me: *looks at the 5 different dishes and the bowl of soup* huh? nothing to cook, but can cook 5 diff kinds and one soup?
mom: *sha xiao*

me: guys sometimes can be so inconsiderate..
jer: huh why? who offended u?
me: u loh..
jer: y lehz
me: *i wanna faint* i'm just kidding.

ok, enough of randomness. gonna Zzz le. tml monday bluez..=)

haiz. just when i thought..
7:04 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
i'm officially soundless now.

not having a sound mind(i think my o6 classmates and cca mates will know).
not able to give out any sound from my mouth.

why is that so?
wells, i just heard something reeaaaaal shocking today. and i'm still so shocked now. recently too many shocking things happened, so my brain is dying to have a rest and being unsound.

and i went kbox with THE BLOG today. and both of us sang out throats out for 5 plus plus hours, while eating long john silver that we smuggles in. and there was this waiter guy (who looks not bad, geez), who 'threatened' in a friendly manner to bring 4 bowls of snacks for us if we eat so fast. so paiseh prease! cuz i was the one who kept calling. and the waiters all didn't have to ans the phone to know what me and THE BLOG wants. he came in automatically with 2 refilled bowls of yummies. oh man. now i can only 'chat' on msn, but not verbally definitely. hopes my throat gets better tomorrow.

and i'm still shocked. there are just so many sides to a person. including myself. and a single incident could change your entire life.

you were not here today=X
10:59 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
just read a few people's blog. my first time visiting their blog(s).

after that, i felt i matured quite abit. (lolx)

but it's true. looking at things from other perspective. from teacher's point of view, from an onlookers' point of view, from a leader's point of view, etc.

how different things can be on the other side.

so, just wanna say i'm sorry to those whom i have offended the past few days. especially those whom i was very impatient and snappy to, and to those i was referring to in the previous entry.. sorry!! (but it takes 2 hands to clap. so yup. environment plus genes.)

anyway, i quote from someone's blog " fat hope, slim chance". quite cool huh..

randomness is getting into me every now and then. can't stand it. perhaps thats the reason why i'm so pathetic sometimes. yeah..

till then=)
11:22 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007
i guess when i'm fierce i'm really fierce and this scares people off.

came online. cuz i needed to vent all my anger. grrrrrrr..

WHY DO SOME PEOPLE NOT UNDERSTAND INSTRUCTIONS?

i have already tried my very very best and why do some people still not understand?? PLEASE understand my plight alright. i'm not like 36hours devoted to this kind of thing.

rarrrrrr.. and it's really annoying when at times you need someone, that someone comes to piss you off..add oil to the fire, that's what i call it. grrrrrr.

so, just tune yourself to the same frequency as me PLEASE.
10:31 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
hmpf. school starting tomorrow. really hate it man. though this holiday was quite hectic and rush for me. haven't really gained back all the energy i have lost.

woke up this morning and rushed out for piano. then came back, ate breakfast, and watched channel u(the korean show), till 12 noon. then i felt so sleepy, so i went to sleep..duh. and woke up like an hour later cuz my dad woke me up to have lunch with him=X sian. disrupt my sleep.

decided to watch some movie after lunch. so turned on the computer. and i'm dead. i'm so hooked to tokyo juliet. and each episode is about 1hr 20mins. a total of 17 episodes. so yeap. i started watching from after lunch. till now. and i only watched 5 episodes.

had pizza hut for dinner. i'm so toot full now. it's like eating an elephant lar. and i haven bathed, haven dig out all my notes, haven do ANY homework at all, and i still feel like going kbox. kbox anyone?

hate the feeling of being under control
10:25 PM
yay! just came back from partyworld! guess the reason for laopok partyworld is that kobx is more expensive during weekend nights? anyway, i quite enjoyed it cuz i think i was quite high, from the after camp mood. yeah..

and jason and sheehian sang qianlizhiwai which was like so like the original prease. and i was so entertained..i bet the rest were too.heh. should have recorded it down.

and just when i was about to forget you, you same into my life again.
12:44 AM
Friday, March 16, 2007
woah. just came back from camp. and i'm stone-ing online. not exactly stone-ing, cuz i'm more like settling some stuff for tomorrow's cdac thingy. yeap..

anyway, i think the camp was successful and very fun, except for a few unhappy events. which i don't wish to jot down and remember.

DAY 1
quite a mess, cuz of the briefing for the camp and all the details and settling in stuff. but it was still alright i guess. then proceeded with the mass games which i think was not bad too. think everyone enjoyed it in some way or another.

then settle the food thingy for lunch. then for the 2 breakfasts. and sectionals with mr lee in the morning till noon. and he was like asking me for lunch. -.- toot. like a hungry child. and then it was dazu.. and i hardly got to practice all this while because i was either settling the food stuff with sister, or running around running errands, or making ribena for the meals, or i have no cello to practice on(njco is poor lar). anyway, its busy busy day.. and suddenly they(conductors) told us that audition is on the first day of camp. i was so freaked out! and told mr lee. mr lee came at night and prac with us till like shitty freaking hours of 10.30pm prease. and by than my eyes were closed le. and he kept asking for food like a hungry baby..lolx..

but we got tricked lar. cuz they weren't able to finish for all instruments on that day. so ours got postponed. so my section wanted to protest since they have already stayed up so late. and waited outside the audition room until the instructors come out. meanwhile, they were playing musical chairs with chinying as the music that goes on and off..it was so enjoyable watching them play!! i was so so so tired that i just stayed at one side and watch them play. farnie pple..

in the end, their protest didn't work. but we had fun cuz i learnt a cheer from them and entertained myself when i watch them play musical chairs.

wanted to go back and have a good sleep, since i slept like so late the night before. but some of the rest were making so much noise that i couldn't sleep. first it was very loud gossiping.. then someone (u noe who u are) came to knock onto cellobass classroom door and kahyan and duqian screamed like hell. and woke me up from my semi-conscious state. this was followed by dudu's xiao bao chuan (live and recording). and all the huan zhu gege songs. actually it was quite funny (though abit eerie to hear these songs like at midnight), but i got abit pissed cuz i was really really tired.

so much for the first day..

DAY2
got a headache trying to wake some people up. absolutely dotx. i woke up early to 'brew' milo, but got locked in my own room instead because the room i/c(dudu) locked the door. and she left the key in her pinafore, but couldn't find it. so i got locked up for appr. 15mins, like in the dark.

made milo for CO and it was like not enough prease. so sister got her sisters to help out. and it was ok.

sectionals, followed by dazu, then audition. super nervous prease. not even prepared for the audition. moreover i was so full when i went in cuz i ate a pack of beehoon before hand.

then it was dinner then station games, which i have no comments.

had a good talk with my sisters, all the way till midnight. and bathed at around 2plus in the morning. and continued with the talking session from around 3am till 4.30am. also played a few games of cards, which was very very extremely high during this time. my sisters are all crazy le.

went to sleep at around 4.30am, and woke up at 6.30am, feeling so reluctant. and went to make milo. and at around 7 something cuz some people in my section refuse to wake up. and needed super noisy morning calls..

during breakfast i suddenly found my section missing! cuz all of them went to send dudu home(cuz she broke her specs), when they were suppose to help in area cleaning. and i was shocked prease. anw, after that was amazing race and i was the station master, together with sister. and ms tan said me and sister are going to break dance cuz we were stationed at the esplanade the break dance area. while waiting for sisters(liyan and yuquan) to buy lunch, i fell asleep while sitting at the cockroach infested area. wadever, really too tired.

sister ziwei got my section for amazing race and he said cellobass is really fun! and i think he went berserk after that. cuz during dinner he was totally high and crazy. and that marks the end of my day.

actually the camp sounds quite boring here, but in fact it's really fun. and i really love it. yeah..though it was quite a headache, but my section really rocks=) and yeap..co all the way=D
8:54 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
i realise i keep blogging recently. is that a sign of a troubled girl? troubles. and i got to know two other troubled girls. one with the exact same situation as me. dilemma. or even worse.

tomorrow's CO camp! i'm darn worried for goodness sake. for some unknown reason. quite scared. but we've put in so much effort in planning everything from head to toe, so i guess my expectations for this is quite high. and i should actually embrace the coming of the camp hur. =}

sometimes it helps to pour things out to others. after yesterday's talk, i was abit better. at least not exploding. but still on the verge of dying from the pain. yeah. the pain that i've been going through is just too great, and cannot be explained. i guess you will know it if you are going through what i am experiencing now.

i hate the feeling when my feelings are being controlled. why can't i control myself? why can't i feel what i want to feel? why can't i just forget everything and say bye in a suave manner? all these just keeps haunting me. i'm trying so hard each and everytime but you just spoil it. and the foolish girl just let history repeat itself. 是你决定我的伤心.
11:58 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
a bad day today. VERY ultra bad day.

firstly, in the morning i missed bio spa. got so frightened that i cried at home. and in school before the spa. and miss chua was like found it unbelievable that i actually overslept. actually i found it unbelievable also. i'm really the extreme.

then, my phone bill burst-ed because i kept receiving sms pestering me about this, about that, and the super long phone calls from cindy. yeah. and i get the feeling my sis is gonna scold me big deal this month. first the sms, then the phone calls.

this was followed by the very unhappy incident in bugis. was debating whether or not i should buy this metallic pencil BOX. first it's not very practical, and i think metal cases are heavy and besides a metal box for$8 wasn't that worthwhile. but i finally decided to buy and went up to the shop for the second time. took the box, and asked if i could check for dents and etc. 'sure not problem' was the reply. and i checked. and i asked if i could testing the box. 'no problem' again. to my horror the correction tape and staple couldn't fit. and the box cannot closE! wenying then suggested that i took out the top tray so that i can fit everything in and close the box. then the shop assistant said in a very frustrated tone 'bu ke yi, bu ke yi, na ge 'tray' na chu lai bu ke yi guan le. hui heng song. na ni bu yong mai le. bye bye bye bye' and snatched the pencil box away from my hands. SHOCKED. super shocked can. so d*mn rude prs. remember people. LOVELY LAND that shop. don't buy things from the rude assistant. toot.

and now i'm home trying to find some inner peace while online-ing and typing a blog entry, some idiot came buy and said something. and i was so pissed diao. fine. it's n.o.m.b. anyway, just take it that i have wasted my youth on doing some wrong things. yeah. sure no problem. really n.o.m.b...

basically today just sucked big time. morever yesterday night i had such a difficult time talking to a piece of stone. and that stone is so horribly non-living. urgh. life really is....could it be any worse?
8:26 PM
participated in the nusco march odyssey concert today.

had thought i will just die of boredom there. but i was wrong. had so much fun that i think i'm gonna miss the backstage days. and running around and pigging out at green room. heh.

took lotsa photos today. but all not with me. i only have me and 2pangsais photos. the 3 of us the pangsais are so pathetic! SOBX!!

saw a china version of Rain. it's Raining! lolx.. there was this guy whom i thought was quite cute. coz he has small eyes just like Rain's and the way he talk was so interesting. yeap. so i told ruihoong that. den pangsai came and told me she thinks that this guy with small eyes is cute. and we were actually talking about the same guy! and ruihoong kept teasing me about Rain in the dressing room lar. so paiseh when he was around. actually sort of reminds me of the ex-yellowman.

then saw yet another guy who looked quite cute from afar. so i told pangsai to watchout for him. she was like 'where where where??' looking high and low. then all of a sudden this VERY TALL guy walk pass us and both of us looked up and 'WOW' and pangsai went "is that him?" ahhhahax.. same taste the both of us.

enough about guy hunting. shall talk about what i ate.

first thing in the morning, i had breakfast(delifrance pastry) at 9plus. then had a pkt of chicken rice at 11.30am. in between had lotsa butter cookies. then went for rehearsal at 12 plus. had break in between and ate more cookies and oreos and marshmallow. at around 3pm had 2 buns(one ham one mushroom), plus 1 pkt charsiewrice. and more junkies. mostly marshmallow. i think i gobbled up half the pkt of marshmallow. den had potato chips back in CAB changing room. and dried mangoes. followed by more butter cookies(me and pangsai finished the whole tin tgt!). then waited for performance. more junkies during intermission and break plus a few games of bridge. then performance again. and ate dinner at KFC until by stomach really burst.

the 3 pangsais went around nus open house in our red angbao costumes which was so throw face prs. then this nus guy said 'WOW' in front of us and pangsai went 'WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?' back at him. that guy stunned. got spotted by some CO fren, a GP classmate, and a senior who asked me what the toot i was doing there in that big angbao.

and so throw face again cuz i realise i know quite alot of people in the audience. yeap. and i played so many wrong things. SHALA~

and talking to lollis as usual. and wenxiang is farnie can. his sms make me wanna laugh my head off. and no, he's not my eyecandy. just some blur guy who thinks that the Rain we were talking about is in Korea.

anyway, that's all for now. need a good night's rest! =)

dilemma.
12:04 AM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
went for the nus open house today. took lotsa brochures plus goodies. and saw yellowman at the social science booth with his 1960s hairstyle. he looked weird man. and the 3 woman i was with were like 'where where where?' and miao-ing for so long. -.-

anyway, suddenly feel i'm giving myself unnecessary(or necessary?) pressure. uni admission is really difficult and i have no confidence of getting in at all. especially those courses that i'm interested in. woah. super hard. maybe i shall turn to a supermugger and mug my way through so that i will have no regrets next year. i really need all the luck, motivation and energy. sigh.

enough of sad things.. tomorrow is the concert! yeah! gonna enjoys having HDBs and HPs man.. Hot-Dog-Buns and HelloPandas. lame lame but that was what me and wanqian were doing prs. professional FTs(food stealers). food rocks man. though i'm quite nervous cuz i cant play those songs! =S but jiayou to myself=)

my motivation?

[edited]
i suddenly feel very old. after talking to an old man and reminiscing the past. what de. true friendship becomes precious gems when you get older, putting on a mask everytime you are outside to protect yourself, and all the politics that people are involved in. had enough of this and it just makes me sick at the thought of seeing those people almost everyday.

and while chatting and talking like old people, i'm listening to wuti. WUTI 1!! RVCO!! u rock=) i miss the days in rvco. seriously, rvians are the BEST to hang out with. non-put-up-a-front species, naive, pure, everything. not haolian-ing about myself but thats the truth. had the best days in rv and i think it will still be the best moments in my life. the photoalbum of my rv days will forever remain special and close to me. yeap. guys u made my world rock=)

and i think you ARE my motivation
10:21 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
(long, boring post, as usual...)

hmmm. suddenly felt like chaning my blogskin. so yeap spent the past 2 hours doing this and in front of the tv. but my comp is abit lag, i can't see the new layout! urghh..maybe after 3 days(like last week), my posts will get updated on my own comp.

recently due to encouragement from some people, i tried. and i really tried. and results i get are just so disheartening. especially today. it really s*cked. and yesterday, after hearing those things. i think i'm gonna give up soon.

had stupid road run today. first time in history, in 18years that i really ran in such an event. though still very slow, but at least i ran! better than last year, me and jo were strolling behind some ahmas and were so duilian pls! anyway, so sorry to brown-spotted- leopard! i ran off without realising you werent following! uh oh. really had a good time laughing yesterday night while chatting with brown-spotted-leopard. farnie prs.
morning assembly was super throw-face hur. was asking the girls 'who wanna go wee wee', meaning go toilet after morning assembly and shitty weewee was like standing beside me in his 'hideous' outfit, trying to look like 'one of us'. and his comment was so urgh. 'i will be always watching you all' or something along that line. so toot. should have rebutted 'watching us bathe too?' as according to steph.
saw







joanne peh's hair. which looked like mop. first it was on the floor cuz noone wanted to pong pong it. yeah. and the 2nd pic looks like she's got hair floating in the air. wooo.~

went back to rvco today. feels great to be back, though i'm the only one from my section and its quite boring and i don't really know many of them there. just seeing the juniors whom i have 'babysitted' last time grow strong and steady makes me feel happy. yeah. and the good life they are leading now. strongly believes that they can do it! 4th April! jiayou my darlings!~

for now i guess is just be myself and stop thinking about it. yea, stop it.

10:36 PM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
hmm. it's sort of like the end of common test. though there's idiotic chem SPA tomorrow. but i guess i shall take it easy.

was really disappointed for maths. so don't talk to me about math anymore. you know who u are. and the rest weren't that good either. yeah. sensitive subject.

and i just realise that the blue that i used for my font for my previous entry totally sucked. HAHA. so horrible against the pink background.

rewatched hana kimi just now cuz i realise i missed out one part that day while watching it in a rush (my mom kept pestering me for the comp). but the ending is still quite.....

got a partner for my organism yesterday. mr greenie! and i have ms orange with me while mr greenie came along.. so mr greenie and ms orange are having a good time together now. heh. omitian. what am i talking about. =X

bored bored bored! and there's no one online for me to pester. sigh. i shall go tv watching. what shall i do tomorrow?

enjoy being foolish.
7:37 PM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
專屬天使 - TANK
我不會怪你　對我的偽裝
天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽　而妳纖細善良　怎能讓妳為了我被碰傷

小小的手掌　厚厚的溫暖　
妳總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想　透過妳的眼光　我才看見它原來在前方

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　妳是我的專屬天使　唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上　擁有一個專屬天使　我哪裡還需要別的願望

小小的手掌　大大的力量　
我一定也會像妳一樣飛翔
妳想去的地方　就是我的方向　有我保護笑容儘管燦爛

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　妳是我的專屬天使唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上 擁有一個專屬天使　我哪裡還需要別的願望

要不是妳出現　我一定還在沉睡　絕望的以為　生命只有黑夜

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　妳是我的專屬天使　唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上 擁有一個專屬天使 我哪裡還需要別的願望

the more i hear it, the nicer it gets. yeap. gonna replay and replay until i'm sick of it man. yeahh.. actually zhi dui ni you gan jue is nice too..hahhahax..kbox! can't wait to kbox! =)

foolish. wanting something that will never be yours. wake up girl.
11:15 PM
Friday, March 02, 2007
hahahx.. was actually searching for something to blog about just now. then i realise i got nothing to say, just too boliao. after spending some time online, and chatting with some people(quite a few actually), i found something i really wanted to comment on for very long.

that is, finding unnecessary trouble. some people just like to find troubles for themselves when they can be shaking their legs. yah. like me, shake leg. HAHA. the selfish me thinks that sometimes when we are having too much to do, just let go of one of the objectives. sacrifices need to be made. not everyone's wants can be satisfied. yeah, and i laugh when i think about those things.

another thing is, somehow i just can't trust telling things to people. even friends whom i'm closest to. yeah negative feelings again..

shall talk about something happier. i think it's getting on well!! HAHAX.. okies. nothing else to talk about. gonna sleep! afterall, its the year of pig...=X
11:35 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
partI
heh. just came back from dinner and watched the niangzi xianggong show. wpe i missed 15mins of it and they turned back to normal mortals! anyone care to tell me what on earth happened??

i'm quite high now, cuz i'm simply too bored. bored until high, until i couldn't believe what i just said. getting weirder and weirder!

anyway, today had some paper lar. dun really wanna talk about it. then my sis 'forced' the whole family to go eat shabu shabu with her. so in the end we had jap steamboat until my stomach burst. and the irony is, jus directly opposite (like 5 steps away) is a gym. those people working out in the gym will be like staring at you feast on food. eeeks. but the food is nice. so are the waitress and waiters. especially this waiter who came to refills our glasses. my mom, being polite and couteous as always, wanted to make things simpler for him and so offered him her glass to fill (so that he doesn't need to walk around). and the waiter said " never it's ok. i will walk around and fill one by one." sound like she cutting our queue. anyway, quite funny la after this. and my dad ordered a plate of TWO oysters. really like TWO oysters. so farnie. =X

actually wondering if my 'high-ness' is the happy or the sad kind. somewhat feel that i'm not feeling happy at all inside. maybe too sad so become high. life is just so...full of dilemma.

partII
got so boliao just now, so i bugged xingyu to play games with me.. oh man like a child. anyway, we tried nearly all the msn games, but they were either too cheem that we don't know how to play, or cannot load, or blank screen etc. yeap. so all failure.

then shihui was super entertaining can with her 12 songs that she owe me for kbox. heh. then came flossy which made me so high cuz of one sentence.. lolx! i think i like to fa hua chi recently. sick man.

and wu zun is shuai dai le. rocks man.

i know i'm really happy now. afterall that torture.
10:22 PM