i realise i keep blogging recently. is that a sign of a troubled girl? troubles. and i got to know two other troubled girls. one with the exact same situation as me. dilemma. or even worse.
tomorrow's CO camp! i'm darn worried for goodness sake. for some unknown reason. quite scared. but we've put in so much effort in planning everything from head to toe, so i guess my expectations for this is quite high. and i should actually embrace the coming of the camp hur. =}
sometimes it helps to pour things out to others. after yesterday's talk, i was abit better. at least not exploding. but still on the verge of dying from the pain. yeah. the pain that i've been going through is just too great, and cannot be explained. i guess you will know it if you are going through what i am experiencing now.
i hate the feeling when my feelings are being controlled. why can't i control myself? why can't i feel what i want to feel? why can't i just forget everything and say bye in a suave manner? all these just keeps haunting me. i'm trying so hard each and everytime but you just spoil it. and the foolish girl just let history repeat itself. 是你决定我的伤心.
