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Monday, April 30, 2007
my favourite hobby for now: blog hopping=)

heh. linked linked linked and used the best search engine on earth--google. and i managed to dig out some gossips. really interesting ones, but just that, i think it's not so nice to say them out. bleahx. and besides its a promise x)

okay had rehearsal and was cam whoring until i got nagged at by mr ong. sorry! but i was kinda excited. heh. some photos:
first shot.
dead=X
me and dudu. acting cute nehx=P
actually there's more, but my comp is really slow in uploading photos onto blog so wells. come get it from me okays njco cellobass!
sometimes a different perspective changes a person's life. i'm glad i changed mine and life's better now. bit by bit i'm growing to lurve njco cellobass. especially the innocence and childhood-like-feeling when i'm with them. i miss this feeling, free and away from all that vieing(how do u spell this?) and stabbing. yeap! carefree and crazy always!
today was actually a very suay day. first, i arrived school late, but i guess i managed to convince tong that my reason was valid and somehow because of that, i THINK he let all the latecomers off. wells.
then, my contact lens in the left eye tore. and i didn't know. all i knew was that i was tearing real badly till i could feel my eyeballs shrinking. until i put it back into my eyes for the 2nd time and had the same effects. grr. took it out and realised there was this large slit in the middle. no wonders.
next was squeezing my foot with the about-to-fall-off-toe-nail into my court shoes. though i had all precautions ready to battle the court shoes, it still hurts.
came back from rehearsal and went for dinner. and my tummy went nuts. hell, i vomitted after i alighted the bus. and i slept the whole of the journey to prevent myself from thinking about the discomfort. argh. i vomitted like 1tenth of my dinner. raawrs. okay disgusting day. considering i made ms tan very disgusted over my toe nail. hehx=P
so yup, im still blog hopping. juicy juicy! =)
loves CO to bits=)
it's amazing how some people can still remain such good friends=)

11:35 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
yeah, i can feel the bond already. hope it's not too late. =)

nonetheless, i still miss rvco=) rock on..

can't believe what i did today. i went CHANGI AIRPORT alone. ok fine i'm a loner. actually wanted some quiet moments on my own. to sort things out, to think things through, to get them into my mind, and also to finish some tutorials, which wasn't that effective.

and the more unbelievable thing was that, at the remote place, somewhere that lies at the other end of singapore, i met my old friend. ahhhax.

and i decided to take a picture since it's so rare that wear my specs out. nehX. so rare that i meet my old friends. in future when i meet them, i shall take photos. =)


random scribbling due to boredom during bio. master piece by me and miss lai.



me and merlion on her bday=) cheers!

this was taken super long ago, but uploaded only now. or i only saw this in my photo like now. look at the name of the bicycle shop. heh.

i can officially proclaim that my sixth sense is really accurate. cuz my sis really has a boyfriend now and it's quite official cuz she showed the photos to me and my mom.
anw, it's so accurate that is scares me. could it be true?
follow your heart, but isit really that easy?

10:38 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
war is not about who's right, but about who's left.

life is actually a scam, in the end, you will realise what is most important may not be.

okays, acting cheem here.

alot of things happened these past few days. including today..just now was super happening prease and luckily due to my observant nature, i did catch quite abit of things. and sadly, i'm still in a pathetic state.

abit no link. maybe that's why my gp is so PRO like sai.

anyway, i really felt damn sad when i heard of what happened on thursday and i'm guilty! guilty for always scolding her, always so cross with her and i'm so sorry! rarrr..

sometimes ignorance is bliss. it really is.

for now, i shall just take it as it is. what else can i do?
8:56 PM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
GUESS WHAT?

the toe nail of my left foot big toe is falling off! it's currently half-detached from my toe flesh. okay gross to start an entry like that. but errrh, it's really painful. i guess i'll go see a doctor tomorrow. and remove that half that is coming off. urgh.=X

blogging now cuz noone is online to crap with me. hur. starrain and missapple all not here. how come hur? and i'm feeling quite low and down at the moment. and those i had wished, hoped, prayed wadever would comfort me didn't and someone else came along instead. and my supposed good friends just yelled some crap at me which i didn't really want to hear. cuz he's total crap.

discovered this phenomenon recently...
usually the blogs of nj students contain very negative entries, while that of other students from other schools contain happier recounts. hmmm. why is this so?

anyways, shall get myself busy with some drawing=)

at last you are back=D
10:11 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
*coughs coughs*

*sneeze sneeze*

*coughs coughs* again

=(

that could only mean i'm falling sick. argh.

my left ear went totally blocked today. woah. just a turn of that bus my ears went bong! my goodness gave me a fright. and a miracle happened cuz it just returned to it's normal state after i laughed hard over something which i can't remember now.

yeah, i'm falling sick and guess what i ate today to make it worse?

a bar of kitkat, one taro pie and a stick of squid head from old chang kee. yeah. and some milo that was so sweet and thick due to the absence of ice.

speaking about ice. i'm really worried for chemistry. whadde toot is he talking about?! i really have no idea.

the only thing i look forward to in school is.. GC tomorrow! pawning session. and ... CCA.

amazingly, i've developed this love for practices recently. actually only i know the exact reason yeah. but anyways, practices have been quite enjoyable because i get to display my talent of talking crap and complaining. and definitely gossiping. but of course there's this main reason. =X

oh wells, harmoc got gold with honours! WOOOHOO!! congrats to harmoc people of s06. rocks+)

but then again, pressure. argh.

okay, enough of crap. i think i better start doing gp shit. rarr. roar. i really LOVE studying=) my hobby nia=X

i think i'm sure now.
11:15 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
yeah as usual, i'm online again. rarrrr.. on a sunday morning when i'm suppose to chiong my tutorials and all. grrrr..

anyways, went for piano lesson just now. and my piano teacher's forgetful maid forgot to close the door. and the dog came in and bark so loudly at me! rarrr.. i screamed so darn loudly that my teacher's husband had to come save me. and i was shaking so terribly badly. argh.

so much for the commotion in the morning. i just remembered i dreamt of christine, together with some other 2i buddies, yesterday night. oh man i sure miss them. i swear i'm gonna meet up with them after syf.

wells, i think i really need a study buddy on sunday. if not, nothing will be done. i'll get nothing done. rarrr. and prays that i get my mind off these irritating things soon.

[edited]
just came back from westmall and witnessed a 'money-fell-from-heaven' incident. was on the escalator when pieces of $5 and $2 notes fell down to the first floor. was it some scam show? really like cai shen dao or something. yeah.

other than that, nothing interesting has happened. dull life.=X
please come back quick. i need reassurance.
11:44 AM
it's actually 22nd april le, cuz it's midnite. but i shall take it as 21st april now. heh. nonsense.

today was a 'whole-day-outside' day from morning 7am till 11pm. went for practice, then cdac, then vjc concert. oh man im dead tired now. and i laughed so much just now. hmm.. impressed yet stressed=/

and this comes to another thing on my mind. absence doesn't make heart fonder, and to make it worse, there has to be this other thing present. oh wells. i'm starting to sound sense-less..

anyways, been called several 'names' recently. bleahx. =X am i a joke?
12:20 AM
Friday, April 20, 2007
tired.

suddenly felt so tired and sick of everything. though i slept quite alot these few days, i just feel so so tired. guess its that cycle again. everything's coming down at me. all the problem lies with me. everything is my fault. when something is wrong, its my fault. when nothing is well, blame me.

okay, enough of my de-stressing. this syf thing is getting overboard lah. politics, human-relations, yadayada. so much to care about. and when can i ever drill some sense into some people? people who ask such duh questions and behave so duhly. aiyah. okay, actually perhaps i'm like that too. wadever.

perhaps it's good to remind myself to keep going. the battle is not yet over, till like end of the year.

anyways, something happier. i got a new laogong today. mr lee changed my lao gong and gave mine to yuting. and yuting's became mine. ahhahx. hope i get along well with my new laogong. just now was not bad lar. =)

the feeling of uncertainty has 'sprung up' recently. really hate myself in this way. it's like toot!

what does it mean when absence doesn't make heart fonder? what does it imply? anyone who has the answer, please just tell me..

[tired]
10:43 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
rarr!! yesterday while typing an entry, i fell asleep on the laptop. and this morning i woke up at 10 plus to find the laptop off cuz ran out of battery.. here i am, retyping ytd's entry..

reached home super late last night, cuz went for dinner with cellobass guys plus shijun plus xiaomin. yeah. sorry lah we were really slow to make yall wait for half an hour, but don't so fierce lah, really frightened me loh. then all shoot me.=X sorry lah..really didn't mean to not answer the phone calls. really didn't hear..SORRY K!

anyway, was quite fun after that. after they stopped scolding me for making them wait. went to coro at first but the shops were all closed(sorry again!) so took a bus down to adam food centre. ok i'm lousy it's my first time there. maybe i have been there before but it was before the renovations? aiyah, anyway ate that prawn mee with the very strong yellow mee taste and the stingray which tasted of nothing but chilli. and drank sugar cane that has a funny taste due to...HAHA. something.

oh man. i'm a real pig. i ate 3 lunches, 1 breakfast, 2 dinners. hahahx. okay, my mom says i'm fat like shit le. shall find one day go swimming and swim out all the fats.

ytd was quite fun in school. at least i laughed like shit. it started during PE lesson. damn high cuz the PE teachers were really crap. as in mr irwan saw me and said 'eh i couldn't recognise u, u tied up your hair today'. =/ then everytime he sees me he gives this kind of remark. then tong even funnier. oh man. shall not elaborate. got too much to say. anyway jus laughed like shit lah. tong also laugh his spastic laughter. then even funnier.

during GC, when me, xingyu, zhirong and vincent were playing that 'interview board game' and went crazy!! i keep screaming *hidden talents* and laughing so loud like siao like that. cuz it was so fun! playing with the pawns and seeing vincent's expression change. how childish can we get! but it's fun. at least it helps to divert my thoughts away. for that few moments. but that wee like to tze siao and was making so much noise saying we making so much noise. all the crap.

then during lunch. i laughed until i cannot make it. the tao huey and the tarik beng. HAHA. what am i talking about! OH MAN.

then was talking during chem and didn't understand what wee was talking about. aiyah, then he keep kpo kpo. but i still enjoy talking and daydreaming, thinking about next week.

all that torture will start next week again. rarr. i hate it.

i wish you will never come back. - irony

[back from school]
woo~ i jus like wasted one whole day. went for cca in the afternoon and practice was alright. but when the harmoc people came in, i was super nervous! my hands were like shaking non-stop and i couldn't focus at all. the more i want myself to play correctly, the worse it gets and everything was screwed up! especially the last part of choice piece. and for set piece, everything was screwed up toO!

rarr!! i guess the reason for the nervous me is due to stress and stress. stress that i will throw face in front of my classmates in harmoc, stress that nearly half the section depends on the few of us, stress that mr lee is watching with his eagle eyes, stress that syf is coming. and we are in this state. and the main reason is that i haven't been exposed to performing in front of large crowds for a long time. nusco concert wasn't really counted cuz i had people to depend on. but the situation now is different for syf.

the stress must go, and the confidence level must rise.

was blog hopping and i happened to pass by this teacher's blog. he wrote, sometimes teachers need motivation too, not just students. motivation of the teacher comes mainly from their students.

have we all not taken teachers for granted? that they will be ever so entertaining? ok, this applies to all teachers excluding blah blah blah teacher who is like pangsai lar..

anyway, cool composure. i really hope that you won't come back. =X
10:53 AM
Friday, April 13, 2007
as i predicted, today was a bad day. but luckily i had premonition(isit called this?) on this before hand, and got myself prepared(but not very well prepared as seen from my tears) beforehand.

anyway, as predicted, the worse came out. luckily had my PW soulmate to console me and to end up in this situation together with me. just let me vent my anger for once more, and jus this one more (and i shan't talk about this anymore). is it a matter of judgement problem, or a matter of lacking the ability to teach i just wonder? what's with those hypocritical words and those irony presented from your mouth? and what's with that 'oh, expected' when you said we were a band 1 standard? i really question your ability to teach and to judge, no doubts. and the meaning of 'fairness' in your dictionary. before PW results release it was one story, after, it was another extreme end. perhaps this is the result of hatred for me from you and from me to you. surely, my group's potential and effort is more than those shit we received. it's surely more than this. and we are sure, what we have done is the best that we could and we know we deserve more than this in our hearts. and the this reflects the nature of the subject: corruptive and unfair. some free-rider got like same good grades as her PW group which i thought was disgusting, especially when she tried to act kind to console the others. really. it made me wanna puke. to appeal with $168 is bribery and day-light robbery, i'm sure all of you agree. and to let your own school teachers and tutor mark your examination scripts is hell unfair and unjust. ok, maybe it's only me venting my anger, but this is what i strongly feel. it's totally useless and unfair judgement of creativity, but only on your writing skills and how you speak. don't we all do that in GP and in eng oral last time? is this necessary? a group, like mine, who gets along well, may not exactly produce good results, because of the nature of this subject and it's marking scheme shit. the whole thing is just shit plus shit and a pile of big shit.

ok enough of venting. went for pizza hut with binggan and xiaomin. it's for me and binggan to eat our anger out. so yeap, after today, everything will be over and life's going back to normal and i'm going to make sure i really start doing things proper (though may be restricted by time).

funny thing happened just now. the 3 of us were walking down the stairs and we heard the bicycle bell rang. me and xm immediately turned our heads to look for the bicycle, and both of us suddenly immediately realised our stupidity. behind us was a flight of stairs, how can a normal bicycle like travel down the stairs prease! -.- ok random.

this week was a shit week, which means, it's gonna be the end of my downturn. just like the business cycle, now is depression. soon, it shall be recovery and then booming for quite some time, i hope=)

hoping to remain positive.
10:12 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
today was a shit day.

and tomorrow will be one too.

all the shit happening at the same time.

today, 2.4km run. horrible. with that stupid shit continuously looking back and tracing where all the others are to see where she stands. come'on man. get real. my tummy hurt halfway and my hair was like siao flying all over the place. and had to tie and retie every round. toot. mr irwan: good timing, but you seem to have alot of hair resistance. toot. what hair resistance. should have cut it short and sweet. =X

but must thank those who paced me. those guys, like horse, who got so irritated pacing me. muahaha. so farnie. and one song, who was like the extreme of horse. and boon hong who scolded me when i refused to listen to him and move my feet faster. hahhax. like hong xing da jiang. wo yao xie xie ... and ... oh yah, and snappy who gave up pacing this slow poke. and went off to be.......hahahahax..

another shit thing. PW comments. suck big time. ok no vulgarities but i feel like scolding those words! damn! whats with those examiners? can't they recognise our efforts? wpe. though i didn't contribute much, i still have moral support when i couldn't give any other support=X haiz. sobx. why why why?

tomorrow: PW results release. Econs essay class assignment (another U shit). math quiz(another dunno whats going on thing).

i think i should wake up man. time is running so fast that i can't catch up with everything. or a thing at all. just slow down please.

by the way, i didn't shi lian k. i just feel so depressed nowadays. everything is not right. everything is wrong. nothing is doing fine. and it's friday 13th tomorrow.

how rocking.
11:26 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
i thought you would know better what i'm very sensitive towards.
but i realise, you are not. you are just like one of those little kids i know. to speak insensitively infront of others and to stir up my feelings, my ever strong feelings towards this thing. thanks for making me so upset yar.

sometimes i wonder will people ever grow up? will anything make sense and make the same sense any longer?

i have trouble even identifying what i'm feeling sometimes. a mixed feeling of uneasiness plus uncertainty. and obviously unhappiness, but these are often not shown. how will i, and how can i truely show them?

on a lighter note, did an incredibly stupid thing just now. with some co people, at the busstop, which caused me to miss 3 busses at a go. wahha. so comical. but quite crazy. i think only he knows the reason why and how uneasy i was. yeah. when i smile i couldnt really feel the happiness in me. laughter seems empty and meaningless. again, it's so saddening.

and i'm ever so lost. when will you be back to save me?
9:47 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
it's loneliness again.

late at night and i'm all alone, listening to a sad love song-- First Love.

first love. it sounds really distant to me. i don't really know the meaning of it.

sigh. a man of pleasure is a man of pain. a woman in love is a woman in torture.

yeah. i think noone knows what i'm talking about. only myself. actually i also dun really know what i'm saying..

i just feel so lost.
11:49 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
OH MAN I THINK I toot..

i feel so disgusted by myself prease. i'm like a stalker can. a stalker lah sian!

and my lian3 pi2 is so thick can. argh. i can't stand myself.

alright, anyway, experienced something super shocking today. i think someone's in love with someone! i can seriously tell! and maybe the feeling's mutual! ahahhax..so 'cool' hur..

and i shall come online less often starting from tomorrow. yeah=PpP

and i suddenly feel so lost when u are gone=X
11:44 PM
good friday.

i went guess where? swimming in the morning from 11plus till 4pm in the afternoon. ended up late in meeting my cousins at 5pm at plaza sing. just reached home from swimming at 5pm when i'm supposed to be at orchard. ok fine i'm always like that.

anyway, had a super duper great meal at cartel. cuz we were like eating bread non-stop and talking non-stop. sat there from 5plus till 7plus 8pm if i'm not wrong. then went.... SHOPPING!

hahhax..me and my cousin were like going crazy, wanting to buy same thing to bring to school. first it was this pair of AA shoes which i wanna luff cuz it's super retro and when you wear socks with the shoes, u look like some kuku prease. den we saw this big big bag with a huge flower in the middle. that will go nicely with the shoes. but didn't buy. then we wanted to buy earrings. but couldn't find any nice earrings. but in the end i bought like a pair of slippers and a shirt, each of my cousin(the females) also bought at least 1 item..super fun shopping with them!! i miss them!! =D

i'm officially burnt and red and cooked. my shoulder hurts from the burning. bleahx. i'm so irresistant to the sun. bleahx. =X but had a great swim today and a great time lameing and bouncing in the pool. both fun and fat burning activity=)
12:29 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
giving myself a holiday, giving myself a chance to get back to what i used to be like. and forget about that freako dino. yes, that's what im gonna do, giving myself a chance to prevent this thingy from getting worse.

anyways, i really can't stand it. SO MANY PEOPLE BDAY RECENTLY! ARGH!! last week was karen chin, then followed by jo lai(tues), wenying(ytd), darrell(today), cindy and shuyu(tml). WOAH. im like BROKE BROKE BROKE! shala~ everyday got pple bday, some days more than 1. and 21st april is the worst! bleahx..like got 4 people bday on that day. oh man.=X

ahhax..today is 5th april! so it means, exactly 2months to my bday! oh man, bday again..=X

and i just discovered this juicy gossip!! oh man! so exciting. singapore is so small that everyone's linked to everyone in some way or another. oh man sounds abit wrong. >.<>

a tiring week coming up. yeah, rest well=)
11:51 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007

they did it. yeah. i'm so proud of my juniors. they did it! woohoo!! they got it back for us and i'm so proud i was once a member(and still is at heart) of RVCO. yeah..rvco rock my world.totally rocks man. feels great to share their happiness and excitement just now, when i received like smses telling me the results. woohoo!! congratulations to them! and *gives them a pat on their shoulder for putting in so much effort into this.* =)
and lets not forget about the current situation we are facing, njco. please just do jiayou.

hmmm, having fun these few days gossiping and talking alot, though im starting to feel the pressure. anyways, keep an optimistic mind! =)


penguins made of brinjal=Xsomething cute that karen sent me. awwwww...

10:27 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
yeah the only reason why i'm online now is, to blog.

duh, that explains why you are reading this entry.

anyways, got inspired by something today to start reflecting on my attitude towards studies, towards life and everything else.

i really have to learn my lessons from my huge mistakes prease. and since this mistake has already been made, i should learn from it. and know myself better from now onwards. i guess i'm really not the smart type, having to fall damn hard before i can stand up straight and walk on. after this damn hard fall today, i'm gonna stand up straight and beat someone flat on the nose. yeah. sounds more toot diao than that someone, but, no choice, since that someone made me so pissed off recently. hahax..

and dealing with politics is not my cup of tea. seriously, i'm quite tired of all that power hungry and snatching parties stuff. and manipulating people to achieve what they want. i'm really tired of that.

on a happier note, i ate dinosaur mee today. lolx..okay people, prease dun tag about this k, i jus wanna lighten up this entry. and not let that someone noe about this. arh what am i talking about. anyways, i suspect i noe that someone's candy. uh oh. not good. shoots.

u hurt me and broke my heart='(
11:58 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
happy april fools!

oh man. im so evil. tricked so many people today. but i got my share of being tricked just now too. hmm.. ok, say im childish then.

spent a bomb just now on food and food and food. nothing but food. was actually very poor in the first place and made even poorer after jus now. oh man, im gonna be a beggar soon=X

good to reminisce the past. and laugh at funny things like imagining zhongru going ns. oh man. horrid.. and some erxin people being with some other erxin people. hahhax.. *evils*

and my emotions are being controlled again. i hate this. i have lost my identity, serious. i just let you control my feelings and whatever you say has a great impact on me. if you know who you are, please let me know. =S though i know it sounds senseless, but you have been reading my blog!!!
11:31 PM