i thought you would know better what i'm very sensitive towards. but i realise, you are not. you are just like one of those little kids i know. to speak insensitively infront of others and to stir up my feelings, my ever strong feelings towards this thing. thanks for making me so upset yar.
sometimes i wonder will people ever grow up? will anything make sense and make the same sense any longer?
i have trouble even identifying what i'm feeling sometimes. a mixed feeling of uneasiness plus uncertainty. and obviously unhappiness, but these are often not shown. how will i, and how can i truely show them?
on a lighter note, did an incredibly stupid thing just now. with some co people, at the busstop, which caused me to miss 3 busses at a go. wahha. so comical. but quite crazy. i think only he knows the reason why and how uneasy i was. yeah. when i smile i couldnt really feel the happiness in me. laughter seems empty and meaningless. again, it's so saddening.
and i'm ever so lost. when will you be back to save me?
