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Monday, May 28, 2007
[29052007]
haiz, suddenly feeling emo again. i realise this happens whenever i face my pile of undone work. sucks. and my girlfriends are all out having something on, cca cca and cca. and just so happen that my cca days clash with their cca days so boohoo no one to pei me! but thats not the point. i gotta realise a more important thing-- im not as strong as i think i am. base on the result of getting very affected by somethings, which i don't think i should have been emo over. argh. thanx for listening online bud.

yeah and a lesson learnt. time heals wound, but the mark left behind as a result of the wound will always stay. and it will always stay in me. not sure about you(s). =X

had a long long chat with a fren ytd on msn. till like 2am plus and till my eyelids were really cmi. but kinda interesting. and i must still say im still very shaken and shocked(by the truth of what u said) by your words. lolx. it's good in a way. helps me in the recovering process i think. and i wish my fren happy recovery too=)

how come my posts are full of abstract stuff? i just wonder. getting more and more complicated.


[28052007]
oh man, i nearly typed my instructor's schedule out here. lolx. then i realise im not sending an email, im BLOGGING! <-- a result of cca-ing too much

horkai, hao de, im a dying soul right now. my voice is worse than yesterday! thanx to my sister who bought Mister Potato and the 2 of us happily gobbled the whole can down ytd. and ate some teriyaki chicken don for lunch. and it was FRIED teriyaki chicken pls. omitian lar. and worse still, after co prac, i went KAP (AGAIN!) with the usual bunch of people. and there's nothing there that is absolutely nutritious or non-fried. plus these people always make my day. laugh like a crazy and now..=X my sis suggested i jus shut my mouth until tomorrow night or something when it's better.

haiz. though things are getting better, i'll never reach that ultimate stage and wads done cannot be undone. things will never be the same again. but i should be glad i'm starting to see the 'cherry side' of life now. yeah.=X

jiayou bah=)

just saw this.. how much is your blog worth? mine's...


My blog is worth $7,903.56.
How much is your blog worth?




it is you i always see. and only you.
11:37 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
[27052007]

lotsa photos here.















chicken wing? no, it's part of the cutlet i had on my plate that looked like chicken wing















me going crazy soon. can't help it, second meal at poolside in a single day. ughh



(26th may-- ARISTAL)

was psycho-ed by steph to wear some DRESS to aristal. and i think we overdressed lar. stupid shit. the moment i stepped out of my house, i felt super weird and uneasy. in that crazy dress.


and what could be more qiao3 than to meet my sec2 classmate! yanling! ahhax. shopping + kbox club+ talk crap partner=)



and even more coincidental to meet cass see. woah. so many decades didnt see her le.=X



very qiao3 too to meet hongern, jieli. horkai im FAT. i need to go on diet soon.



the three of us.. *shakes head*


here comes the fun part!!! wheee!!

me and karen went partor at clarkequay!





























night life

































yay zi pai both of us=)














the scenery


yay improved zipai skills! can even see the background! =D













us on the LAST train to outram park.
by the time we reached outram, the last train to jurong east left.
so, left with no choice, we took a cab home.
and there was this mini jam on the expressway cuz of this big vehicle. roars.
and there was the midnite charge.
so i'm officially broke plus broke.
and i'm tired.
i slept the whole of today. except waking up for lunch then chatting with steph for awhile and watching abit of tv..
yayness. there's co prac tml. i dunno to feel happy or sad or scared. =X
i wish and i wish. that i can be by your side, that u are happy always.
{edited}
forgot to blog down..
i learnt two new words from graceverything that day!!
GHEY! hahhax. according to graceverything, it means lame!! VERY VERY LAME!
and oh no. i forgot the last word.. shall blog it when i recall. HAHA.
had a nice chat on msn. but sadly i dread tml.

8:21 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
[25052007]
back at home so early and this is so unlike me.

don't have the mood to do anything, though i went shopping just now, BY MYSELF, and swept some earrings. yayness on this part, but i'm beginning to feel very zibi prease.

i walked into this shop and they were playing the SHE song, zi teng hua. and omg i felt my tears welling up. s*ck.

and there's one thing i realise, there's no use hiding everything. telling others ur problems maybe be better. thanx bud who listened to my sorrows.

but shopping alone can be fun. =X

explain the paradox.



[24052007]
yeah, i just got blocked by someone on msn. not a very grand thing yar.

and someone just talk to me on msn making me feel worse.

how bad can this feeling be. how worse can it get.

i really don't know.

i'm feeling lousy enough.

and i'm no good in dealing with this kinda situation.

can u stop being angry?

(edited)
horkai, got this strong feeling that tml will be a bad day.

and i'm not feeling sorry for myself anymore. sometimes it takes two hands to clap.

and differeing perspectives (of different people) will always exist. what's wrong to you maybe right to me. so yeah.

im also not gonna care.
10:37 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
[21052007]
horkai(new word i learned from leopard!). im squeezing today's entry in this post again.

went kbox just now. and the pro! cindy(koh) the pro! omg lar. i realise there are so many pro people around me who sing super pro-ly can. like my kbox gang, zr, ah pok(are u honoured ?!), so many many people! now cindy! HAHA. horkai. im a duilian just now. so high and so crazy and super out of tune and like shit. but never mind, it's quite fun anw.

i think i'm never gonna like dinos anymore. perhaps dino shall be replaced by some other organism. dinos are extinct. they don't exist anymore. and perhaps i shall throw away that pencil case. cuz dinos are extinct.

suddenly i'm feeling emo again. argh.


[20052007]
blogging again.

squeezing my entries for 2 days in a single post cuz i want the 100th post to be written on my bday! yeah.. so it's 20th may now.

i'm thinking, when can i convince myself?
to stop thining about **
to stop thinking about how bad life is now
to stop thinking how far behind im lagging in schoolwork
to stop thinking how i'm gonna fail CT and probably As badly
to stop thinking when all my problems will be solved too many things to think about.

i'm really tired.

anyway, on a happier note, the hols are here! yay!! yayness to chionging hw. wad de. shall enjoy my hols really well. until everything about ** gets outta my brain. yay! i love my girlfriends. went kfd(HAHA) to do hw with xingyu and karen. my good girlfriends! hahax. and i went mad over thinking about some shit chem qns and suddenly felt so depressed. die. signs of depression. anyway, tired tired. shall go orh orh soon. =)

[19052007]
a sad day yesterday. experienced 'beggar your neighbour effect' so terribly. felt so numb after hearing all that happened. slept at 2 am or so. and woke up like 7.30am. couldn't sleep any longer.
argh. i'm so sian diao. for now i can only hope for the better.
*shall blog again at night*
9:16 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
yay! blogger's back to normal! shall upload lotsa photos.=)
yeah, that's how hardworking we are=)
yeah us taken during one of our sat/sun/publichols/school off in lieu days
us after syf! smiles people. aiyoh i think guys really don't like to smile when they take photos.
hahhax! dudu singing in fish and co!
and later accompanied by xuanny, hui'er..ahha
x.
us again! done by kahyah? woots! nice=)
our hai3 bao4. big fans of us can get from me! it's done by leona=)
ziwei and wilson singing in fish and co. woots! HAHAX
some old friends=) jackson, me, jiesi, haiyuan. and chinying holding onto the camera=P
rvco! yay! rock all the way=) treasure the good memories we have=)
sorry that's quite abit of photos, and abit lag since it's syf photos. but can't blame me. blame blogger k..
and yes i was very happy once again to see my fellow co mates today. went for dinner cum gossip session and i really miss the syf time. heh. i think i sounded too harsh in my previous entry, and it may trigger some bushuang-ness in me. so, sorry for those harsh words, but i feel much better these few days.
i think i learned so much from njcogz this year. after going syf with this bunch of people filled with passion for music and always striving to produce the best music. and all other arenas which are so plentiful that i can't possible list everything here. from music IQ to personal EQ. everything. i'm just so glad=) i was telling them how hard a time i'm having trying to catch up with homework in my class, while the rest are doing TYS. OMG lar. and i'm glad i have this group of friends on the same boat as me. yeah. njcogz=)
went to do some log comm thing for SISC today with steph. and omitian it was tour around singapore in a sauna bus. hahhax. and nothing else. and took some photos, but the kpo security guard deleted them away! roars!
anyways, i took out the toe nail that has been dangling there for some time. yeah. and my toe feels quite free now. and it looks disgusting. people, dun 'eeeek' at my toe nails alrights, though the sight of it can really make me puke.
hmm. shall try to buck up soon. i must wake up and stop playing so much. and i need to=)
candy floss makes me go crazy. because of you, the sky has twice as many stars, and my face has twice as many smiles=)

10:22 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
[something wrong with blogger, but i must retype to make myself heard]

did it ever occur to you that someone who appears strong and happy may have the most troubles to worry about?

to be joking all day and seemed happy-go-lucky. and be the joke of everyone?

it used to be fun. i THOUGHT it was all about teasing each other.

but not anymore. it's not fun anymore. it sucks.

it doesnt feel all that good. it feels bad. very very lousy.

guys (and gals), please stop it.

anw, happy mom's day. i love my mom for being herself, for being the motherly her.

-because i longed to be love.
8:38 PM

8:38 PM
went for this volunteer training in the afternoon and i was quite freaked out to know that it's interactive. but it was quite alright. stupid of me to think that it'll be THAT interactive. come on look at most of the people who attended, how interactive can it get? hahax.

watched spidey 3 yesterday, and i reached home at 12.30am!! roars!! i nearly fell asleep on the way back after i was left alone to take the train back home. rarrr.

and i'm officially suffering from flu virus. cuz of that stupid cinema. and cold air makes my nose run now. heh.+)

ROAR!! i'm lagging behind homework!! rarr!! help!! i need a study partner!! =X
11:12 AM
Friday, May 11, 2007
njco: GOLD (with diamond)

yeah, i'm proud of njco! and especially cellobass. yes, true, we started with a zero, with only the j2s, and gradually more j1s joined in. dudu, audrey and jinxian brought lotsa laughter to the section, while the rest, joson, yunhao, polarbear, brought us companion. we were in this together and everyone played a part in our memories. we enjoyed each other's company, the dinners, the craziness, the xiao bai chuan, the cheers, the claps, even until yesterday. it was a wonderful experience. so wonderful that i felt i just woke up from a dream. a sweet dream.

it all felt like i'm hallucinating, serene was right. it was so wonderful, too wonderful to be true, even though there were sad and irritating moments.

what mr ong said was right. the fact that we did not cheer out loud after they announced the results shows that we are not exactly with our results, and it signifies that we are moving on to another higher level of music, music with feel, not just technics.

i cried yesterday. but not when they announce the results. i cried after i played the 2 songs. i felt so strongly while playing the 2 songs. i can't say that they were perfect; there's no perfect in music, but somehow it just stirred up my emotions (and quite a few others' too). i weren't nervous for the first time and we know in our hearts that we did it. we succeeded in doing what we wanted. we ARE the best.

and it feels funny not being with CO people today. not meeting up with them, not enjoying my dinner with them, not making music with them, not chatting with them. it's SYF SYNDROME.

and i received a few msg ytd and today. here they go..

[I want more prac more prac! MORE PRAC! HAHA]
[I start to miss you all already =(]
[HELP!!! Doctor KWEK. pls cure us of our post-SYF syndrome. Pls could we resume our normal practices as soon as possible? We miss co. We miss dazu. We miss yesterday!]

and yes, yesterday was the most memorable day. the celebration after that was crazy. we yell and party-ed at fish and co and madness prevails. HAHA. rock the world!

and i'm starting to miss u guys already...
7:45 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
i never thought that i would cry for njco.

until today.

i was totally freaked out after mr lum picked on us.
those tears were

-tears of disappointment; why did we sound so horribly bad when in our hearts we know we can do it
-tears of stress; it's just one more day of practice and we are 'done for'
- tears of mixed feelings when all these that happened was blamed on me
-tears of panic and shock to know how badly we can play under stressful situations.

but after that, i know i'll cry tears of joy and i'm so touched by cellobass! we simply rock the world upside down cuz we just rock!

its amazing how bonded a section can be. and nothing else matters. because we have achieved what we wanted and what everyone else could only hope for-- the bond, the friendship that exist. ok, maybe music is ultimately the most important thing, but seriously, what's music compared to friendship?

and so no matter how tired i am, i still have to say this. thank you cellobass for everything.

and i'm really sorry for adding on burden to you. really had no idea the number of things u had on your mind. takkaires everyone=)
11:47 PM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
yoohoo! someone reminded me it's been 6 days since i last updated my blog. and here i go~~

met wenrong at curry wok:


got so excited that i decided to take a pic with her! yayness! old friends rocks. typical of me (and her actually=P) we started gossiping. non-stop. until some crap guy asked me if i finished talking and can they start eating. wadever. gossip rocks=)

met wilson wong, but forgot to take picture, on my way back home from co prac on dunno which day. sadded. could have added it to my collection too.

met my old senior today. in his army suit! HAHAX. the photo too ugly, so shall not upload.


ok i'm going crazy with all the photo-taking thingy. i'm sorry! i'm just like that=X


bought a nice pencil case. dinos rocks! =)






and i went swimming! yayness again=) now i'm quite burnt- again. rawrs.

looking forward to tml's practice! roars! can go crazy again(maybe?). but i must say some people really do a great job in spoiling my day lar. but i shall ignore them. alrights. it's 1mth minus 1day=) yayness=)


and recently i keep seeing someone appear at cyberactive. wad de.=X shall take a photo next time i see that person again.



picture not taken by me=)




new question for the week;
Let marshmallow be the replacement for candy.
marshmallow= tze siao + luff until mad + talking serious
evaluate marshmallow.





alrights. karen, please solve the eqns=)
10:59 PM