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Saturday, June 30, 2007
tian ar, i just watched 200 pounds of beauty and it's so so so touching. horkai i'm slow with movies thats why im only watching it like now, but seriously, i cried so badly can. =X duper touching.

these few days had been a blast.

wednesday after bio paper went like orchard to eat and gossip. den went woodlands library to find them! woohoO!! and i slept and read some picture books there.

thursday: class outing cum kbox session with the co gang! yoohoo!!

friday: shopping spree with yenzi!! hahhahahx spent like tonnes. but yenzi spent like trillions. =X

saturday: i'm making myself all sad and teary cuz of 200 pounds of beauty.

alrights thats all folks, for now. going shopping le! =)

200 pounds of beauty is really smilex=)

1:30 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
take a knife and stab me please.

and end all my suffering.

yes, you..

i hate this feeling of you controlling my emotions. rarrr

10:37 PM
Sunday, June 24, 2007
this is what happens when studying gets abit boring. heh.






watched princess dIaries yesterday on channel5. yeah and i thought something that Mia said was duper applicable to someone i know. something that goes like 'how many times have i said 'i' today. many times. but the world doesn't revolve round 'i' only.' yeah, some people just don't get the big picture and they only see themselves but not others. they think that they are the only ones who are suffering, experiencing setbacks.

okay i think i sound very unempathising(how to spell!!) but thats the truth. i don't deny i'm sometimes like that too, but wells, someone's really got me on my nerves recently. roars.
oh yar, wanna thank meiting!! she made me so uber gandong can. love her!!=)

was standing at the traffic light there today, when a blind man banged into me. and i helped him with crossing the road! ain't i kind! =P hahahx but the main thing is, while i we were crossing the road, the coffin van made way for us to cross the road. and i literally just walked pass the coffin van. just like that, with the picture 'staring' at me hur like a few inches beside me. erm. and the music from the van. ohmitian.

harlow, there's favourite geepee tml.

shall blogg something, urm more intelligent. heh.

Happiness is an emotional or affective state that is characterized by feelings of enjoyment and satisfaction. As a state and a subject, it has been pursued and commented on extensively throughout world history. This reflects the universal importance that humans place on happiness.

aiyah, so sian. i think picture speaks a thousand words.





quite cute eh??

8:56 PM
Saturday, June 23, 2007
have been thinking quite alot these 2 days.

cuz after mugging at woodlands library, i'll have to take mrt home. and most prob i'm the only one taking that direction.

and that leaves me with ample time to think.

if letting go means having to hurt myself once more with going through the same cycle again, i'll rather not let go. eventually it'll happen again.

ROAR.

i hate the state of confusion.

there's increased entropy in my brain.

many more ways to arrange my thoughts about THIS SHIT. (hey they contain the same alphabets i jus realised)

permutate and combinate.

i get a thousand ways and my thoughts jus run wild.

hope i can get a grip and stop it.

haiz.

k lar.

i know i'll jus mug harder to prevent this.

YIKES!

(such a duper random entry. inspiration induced by someone=X)

12:42 AM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
ooh!! today's date is, 20062007?? cool cool!!

anyways, the past few days have been. urgh. mugging. wad de. i hate the sound of it. i hate doing it, but no choice. for the sake of shutting someone's mouth up, i have to do this.

yayness, mugging session tml again. yesterday's mugging at kap was fun but a headache cuz it was uber noisy. but i took a photo!
so artisitic hur the photo=X
guess who is this???

erm, 2 days before was mugging at the usual place. and i took a photo again!!
my yummy lunch=X so erxin lar. look like pig food=X

and today. i took a photo again! =.=

my companion while mugging.

O kay lar, it's this stupid big insect with uber long leggies. so diao. it kept crawling to where i was sitting, and later decided to just stay like at where i was sitting. erm. so i watched it crawl left, den right, den left. until giddy. and fell asleep. as usual. heh.

horkai lar nothing fun le. over in 1 week's time=) jiayou bah people=)

btw, some funny things happened today. 2 juniors were studying there too! and erm. well. dots. and i received some uber diao sms. and msn also uber diao. until i'm feeling so diao now=X

i think i'm learning how to forget=)

12:15 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
haiz.. swing-ed again.

mood swing, feelings swing, everything swing.

if i said i wasn't stress, i'm lying.

but, it was more of disappointment just now. this i'm very sure of.

disappointed with myself. and disappointed when i pleaded for help, i received nothing but a cold shoulder.

ok i'm petty, but will anyone understand my feelings then?

jus now mugging session with the usual few (heh!) at kap. rocks man. i like mugging with them!! yay yall are loved=) if only the other usual few were there too. it'll be more fun and more yayness=)


对你有感觉-江美琪vs光良
我曾深刻体会对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你给我安慰
看你失落的脸又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈
眼角的泪它给过谁
伤透了心也无所谓
我会愿意静静地陪在你身边
如果说爱已不可为
那我宁愿藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退被爱包围谁犯规都狼狈
谁能解围让一切完美
怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我拥抱瞬间不后悔这暧昧
星光唯美把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面

8:59 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
hmm..

this whole week was a blast!

monday had, let me see, cabeza prac? den went mugging (but more talking lar actually) with them.

tues, wed ==> PA camp. didn't stay overnite, but went for almost the full thing.

thurs, fri ==> CO chalet! tian ar UBER FUN PREASE. the first thing i did there was, to gamble.. and joson was having uber goodluck which made us lost like take off pants prease. first started bbq-ing. oh god the 2nd consecutive day i bbq-ed! and bbq food rocks man. cancer inducing? yay! hahhax. i'm gonna have cancer next time and die of it lor. =X horkai lar, bbq-ed and i felt my contact lenses melting. den went walk walk, arcade(somethings happened which made me duper angry), and zam that bball.. woah i love that bball game. it rocks man.

went to the beach. UBER ROMANTICA! i love the beach. if only there was wind. haiz. lying down on the rocky platform, couting stars, listening to songs that are like omg sadd, talking about things. yes i <3 beach=")">

ended up in mac, with my econs notes. and me sleeping on my econs notes in mac. yay. slept for around 1 hour and woke up to eat breakfast. and the day begins!


after check out, spammed the bball again. hahhax. and played pool. k lar the pool abit sian. think i was uber tired le.


anyway, i love the bits and pieces of fun=)


on the way back. everyone is tired. =X



example of an inconsiderate singaporean. buy one ticket sit 2 seats.



went out with some people today (like sat), and ate at new york new york. great meeting up with them! i made tianlu do a nice pose for my hp cam=)

12:24 AM
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
today was...

super suey. nothing right at all..

haiz, dun talk about it le.

anyways, i learnt a new word .. 'UBER'

hahhax. it means super i think? i heard and saw it several times today, and it's in my brain le!

if only my normal eng vocab could expand half as fast as this kinda shitty vocab.

horkai lar, im UBER tired. if only i can run half as fast as the time. then i'll probably have some chance of winning the race. yikes.

i dun have time=X

11:41 PM
Monday, June 11, 2007
sucks.

i suck.

wake up girl, stop making noise pollution, pack up ur cello and jus scram!!

scram!

stop making noise pollution

i haven truely hear myself play for like 3 more than 3 years? since sec3?

today i tried and experimented.

it sounded worse than shit.

i sound like shit

still got face laugh at people.

im so god damn sucky

sucks

i should just stop pulling down everyone's standard.

and shut up.

practice.

yar prac lor prac lor

think that easy?

sucks

i shall jus never touch cello again after aurora.

10:41 PM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
[edited]
woah i jus read my gf's blog! so sweet the one about the wedding. the wedding with u as my wife. OMITIAN!! SO SWEET PREASE!!!!!!

and i found this link.

http://www.universalorlando.com/harrypotter/

harry potter theme park!!!!!! wooohoo!! i wanna go!! so cool rite=)

i think too much to get myself too confused.. lolx..

[end of edited]

yay-ness, i mugged a little yesterday and today. yeap i'm feeling less guilty, but yet more stressed up cuz i just realised somethings. haiz. anyways, so be it.. roars.

omg lar i'm talking to this very blur friend of mine who tends to anyhow say things to other people. tian ar.

life's such a bore recently. bleahx. no more CO prac, but luckily there's CABEZA tomorrow! yay-ness!! yay yay yay cabeza rocks. i'm hoping tml will make my week=)

horkai back to watching teevee=P

so bored. =X until i think i'll go download maple=X


i'm freaking scared of the truth that lies in my heart.


9:04 PM
Friday, June 08, 2007
oh man.

0% of common test II studies.

im dead this time.

firstly i don't have the passion for studying, secondly i hate staring at books, thirdly i simply have no energy left.

slept the whole afternoon, for about 3plus 4 hours?

then watching deathnoteII (thanx danhong!), till halfway when someone recommended me songs to download and caused my comp to hang. yeah. will continue later.

haiz. recently things keep happening, one after another. though its tiring, i enjoy the other things that comes along with it. yeap.

njcello007. rock.=) big thankkks to my beloved section for the wonderful surprise. though i somehow know something's fishy(HAHA!) cuz joson's acting skills are abit. hurmm... good lar. horkai. thanx for the many many bday songs and the lovely cake!! woots!!


my belated bday present from seesee!!HAHA.


i'm so afraid that it will happen.
and i think i've learnt to forget, but at the expense of remembering another?

[horkai edited]

felt i had to blog. cuz it was such a blast. gossiping with miss tanxingyu. omg lar it was freaking funny. i nearly died prs! HHAHHAH. H3 in gossip. should share this with karen, grace and jo. LOLX. it'll blast their asses off!!AHHA

9:43 PM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
yayness!! this is my 100th post!!

which marks my birthday!! yay!!

happiness. (though something horrid jus happened)

[shall update again=)]

yay i'm back from my one whole longgggg day of kbox session. and i'm tired prease. hahhax.

this is how i spent my wonderful 18th bday..=)

woke up in the morning, had a nice long chat with my mom! =D

then went to school to prac my fav song, cabeza.

left the prac early (still feeling so guilty) and met up with my partor mates, and kbox!! 11am to 2 pm..

den the cabeza peeps finished le and came down to kbox second time with me!!

(hey u guys sure noe i like kbox hor??!HAHA)

so in conclusion, i kboxed my 18th birthday away. from 11am to 8.30pm.

WOAH. thats like break record for me. heh.

anyway, thanx alot to people who wished me happy bday..

the list goes like this, in the order i receive the msgs=)

huishan(my mortal..before june hols can!), jieli(who insisted early bday wishes cuz he's going for some camp at some ulu place), shijun, meiping!!!(right on the dot!!), meiting!!!(right on the dot too!!), joson(right on the dot!), bernice lao gong=) (right on the dot!!), liyan sister(i think she typed the msg at 0000, but her msg too long nia i received ONE minute after 12am ahhax!!), sijie!!, lijia!!, jiamei, cindy(liew), alvin chua the mouse, ronghui, adeline mei nv!!, xingyu(the fishy muahha) kahyan, jiahao4, steph, zhiwen(HAHA he's so funny can, jiahao2, silly leona, shuyu(HAHA i received the card le bday rep!), grace the brown spot leopard, liuxuanny, yuwei my stead!HAHA, audrey, soohuey!!, MY REAL SISTER(tian ar her msg is funny), some fren who was with my juniors?? who is this??, mingxuan (rep njpa!), dingjie the biscuit, wenying, yuquan(hahhax gossippy sister!), victor the row boat, wanli, aline, yanling!, yanwen(hahax this is my cousin!!), xiaomin, some person whom i dun have the no. again=X, yenzi(my cousin!!), zhitao, fungmin!!, sinyee!!...

yupx. i hope i didnt left out any people to thank!!

its so wonderful receiving so many well wished. yeah..

and special thanks to

njco cellobass for the lovely card.
liyan, adeline, cindy(koh), wenying, yuquan, zhiwen, shijun, lerxian, alvinchua for the tai tai wallet. HAHA yay go clubbing with it=)
graceverything for the cookie and ANYTHING
xingyu, karen, steph and wanli for the prettiest thing on earth. i dunno whats is called hahah!!
06s06 for the cutest card(and hey thats not me running k. my hair is TIED UP)
my mortal for the nice pressie!!=)

and definitely my mom. MY MOM!! for bringing me on to earth on this very day. yes the moment the clock struck 12 i rmb that it's on this very day that she 'suffered' most. yes i rmb, mommy! horkai sounds abit crude. wadever hahhax=)

SOBX!
i didnt have a cake on my 18th bday!! boohoox. hahhax nvm i ate eggs in my banmian jus now. and BOOHOO i couldn't believe i didnt take any photos ar!! sian! hahhax. horkai. i took one with liyan cuz i suddenly rmb i didnt take any photos. grrr...=X

horkai but i had a fun day. =D thanx alot to those who made my day=) and yes if u are reading u are one of them=D

12:41 AM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
this is my 99th post. yeah+)

anyway, was blog hopping just now. and i saw something that i didn't wish to see. something that made me wish that i didnt go around blog hopping=X and i felt weird that i should feel this way. arghh.. roars. wake up girl.

some random photos.
my fav for now=)
oops! i derno how to turn it around=X
yay thanx leopard-with-brown-spots for the perishables=) thanx thanx! hahhax=P
and after blogging i am reminded of that phrase i saw while blog hopping, again. yikes. it's never gonna work for me=X

11:00 AM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
WOAH. i'm officially full and full and still quite full.

had suki sushi today. buffet! at first the food seem quite nice. den, OMG lar i'm so full. and my very weak stomach kept protesting. grrrr. but anyways, thanx peeps for the advice my tummy's better! poot! HAHAX.

horkai erxin, anyways, today's wilson's bday.. yeah the future pilot who promised to take us in his plane next time. and the power shortage came jus in time! the lights and everything went 'boom!' and it was very dark, and i thought of singing happy bday song immediately lar. so cool rite! den 2 minutes after we sang happy bday, the lights came on again! so cool! ahhax. alrights.

yes, today was suppose to be very enjoyable. until i suddenly have those emo thoughts again.

i suddenly realise what i'm always so stress about. stressed about how people think of me, my skills, behaviour, working style and everything. the stress doesn't jus come from others, i myself add on to my stress level too. like crazy. =X

and i feel so incapable. and so lousy. in everything.

sucks

12:41 AM