woohoO! had a superbly fun time with njco cellobass just now!
actually had the intention of bringing books there, but ended up enjoying myself pretty much! so guilty! rarr! like totally forgotten about daddy! oh no!
anw, think i'll start working in st lukes sometime after cny? hope so :) think admin's really not the job for me. my butt is rotting away.
okies so now, bedtime!
really hope things are certainly getting better! =D
still thinking of the adolesence question. >.<
11:59 PM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
as usual, went to visit daddy at hosp.
but today was abit unusual, cuz i applied full day leave, for interview and for caregiver session with the missies. hahax.
and luckily i took leave. cuz in the end i felt unwell myself.
just now daddy said this to me, and i felt my tears welling up. "sorry, wo2 you3 hen3 duo1 tian1 mei2 gei2 ni3 qian2."
at this point of time he still thinks about my pocket money.
though thats what i worry everyday, how to keep my bread and butter myself. for i know my sisters have to help share the medical costs (like one session with TCM costs $40) and i feel so helpless not being able to help. so, more piano and tuition pls! =)
horkai so tired. =X ROAR.
11:27 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
woah, last week was craziness.
sunday: shifted furnitures, threw lotsa clothes away(37kg) and more to go..painted my mom's room.there's echo when we speak in the room now! cleared so many things man.
before that was piano lessons. that's abit like craziness. cuz i also no experience!! AHH!!
monday: went for theory practice(driving) and i keep failing..=( cuz i always nv look through beforehand and whack. oh man=X received a call to go for interview on thurs. hope it goes well..=)
today: did practically NOTHING during work. slacked ALL THE WAY. help! i want somethings to do prs.
okie hope there's things to do tml. SOBX
8:55 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
alamakz, like gonna fall sick soon..
anw, suddenly have this strong urge to blog.
during the period when my dad was in 'great danger' and in great need, his so called 'best friend' whom he hang out with everyday did not even pop by once. instead, those who came were his old friends. what we see it as, is a friend in need is a friend indeed. his best friend, a friend indeed.
i think maybe people of my age don't really know how to respond to such stuff, and we are often too self-minded, because i'm like that too. for instance, those friends whom i consider my good friends, don't really know what kind of a circumstance i'm in. thats just because i haven't heard from them, or heard them asking about my dad's condition eversince the 2nd of jan. i'm not afraid to say it out, to express my disappointment in friendships.
thats because i think i'll never make any true good friends anymore. i've been brought up this way, since pri school. even in sec sch, i have this friend who takes people for granted, and after making me wait for her for one hour, she threw nasty words at me upon meeting up with others. what does that make me? a piece of shit?
mixed feelings of anger and disappointment. i've finally said them out. anyway, my dad's currently staying in rehab centre, and his whole left side is still paralysed. but a good thing is that he's coming back for chinese new year! =) jus for that few days only tho.sigh.
oh not forgetting to thank little miss chan for her utmost concern! i think she understands! =) thanx man!
9:58 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
i think everyone will grow up. thats like duh.
in my pov i felt i grew up most for this period of 2 years, in jc, and also recently.
things and environment make us change.
so many things have happened. too many that i can't absorb fully what is really going on.
too fast that i don't have time to shed a tear.
i wish everything will just return to normal .
11:56 PM
Saturday, January 05, 2008
a tough week has passed.
i hope everything will be fine.
i pray for good health for everyone, especially daddy=)
2008 is really a crazy year.
i hope cny will have the effect of ridding old and welcoming the new, ridding the bad and welcoming the good.
guess i won't be online for quite some days, dun miss me! =XX
tata! stay happy everyone, and cherish ur loved ones.
9:30 AM
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
second day of new year! =)
hmmm, i think 2008 started off pretty badly.
firstly, before i even countdown to 2008, my contact lens had uber lots of problem..and made my eye itch and teary..
then after countdown had to go home myself cuz no one stays in the west area. =X
followed by today, work (plus played table tennis at work), and came home to find my dad so sick.
pains my heart to see him so sickly. and for a moment my thoughts ran wild. but i remembered, the fortune teller once said he is going to live long. and he sure will=)
