first stop in the morning: collect my rec letter from st luke's. then it rained heavily as i walked out from st luke's to the busstop. then saw this double deck turning in and i started running. hot, sticky, and raining. the weather rocks. and chase after the bus somemore.
second stop at nj. walked uphill to the maingate and the security guard gave me TEN minutes. ello, i think by the time i reach letter tray already ten mins can. took my other letters and went to photocopy them. and had to queue super long can. so in the end, i jus randomly asked this junior to help me with the duplicates. lolx. nice guy cuz he refused the 30cents for the photocopying yar. HAHA.
third stop. busstop outside nj. rocks. i walked out from maingate, jus that this time, the drizzle got heavier. BOO. and my stupid aluminium so light weight umbrella nearly got blown away. DOTS.
reached nus, but i realise i don't know how to get to yll!! so i just blindly alighted at central, and hoped on to any bus. which brought me to pgpr(i think so). argh. wrong bus wrong direction i think. hmm. so waited for the same bus at the terminus and i felt like everyone's laughing at me. and met my senior there. so paiseh! so back at central, my senior told me to take this bus and i also rmb my cousin telling me before. so got to yll. but i alighted and got lost. dunno where's dean's office.
so i jus grabbed this uncle i saw. he's a cleaner there as he claimed to be, and brought me to the block. and on the way i felt like he's giving me a tour, and he pointed out this building to me and said 'zhe bian dou shi fang si ren de'. i felt spooked out pls. as in the way his tone suddenly went DOWN. like =S. like eerie. hahax.
so at dean's office, the lady at the counter wasn't really that friendly and kept telling me there's no appeal? then later she said i needed an appeal letter. omt wads that. then i took out my amazingly huge package of rubbish and asked if she could help me submit to the panel. she couldnt stand me and so she called this lady out to entertain me. this lady took this stack of stuff and said she would pass to the panel. which i really really really hope so and hope that i will receive some good news (after so many bad ones) soon. haiz.
okie. then back to work. another long trip. bus to mrt to bus. couldn't walk any further and the sun was blazingly hot. hahax. btw this big bug bit me at the interchange. am i dying?
at work. wow. my sup didnt come. so erm. my second day at the ward? and it's like i only followed her for half a day ytd? so erm. i only saw ONE patient. goodness. i miss ward 22. sigh. i miss the demented patients and playing with them. really fun can. work now is like, plain work. i dont feel the desire to go the extra mile. whatever it is, tml is the extension of contract. i'm regretting it! argh!
hope tml's work will be alright. btw i realise i really cant stand pple rolling eyes at me. or simply jus rolling their eyes. cuz i realise this sup of mine really quite likes to roll hers. haiz.
for now, jiu zi ge bi. byebye.=)
11:18 PM
Sunday, April 27, 2008
now i know the meaning of huo bu dan xing. troubles spell one after another. just non-stop. since the beginning of the year, everything has screwed nonstop.
now its worse. nothing could be worse i think.
i'm only left with one choice. biomed tcm. i think thats it.
sigh...
since when did my life get so screwed up? this year must be a bad year, cuz i keep hearing alot of people telling me how screwed up they are. okies, maybe i'll just go be a nun.
i feel like crying everytime all these problems come into my mind. sian. i just wanna run away from them.
11:02 PM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
i ask myself, why am i doing this?
anw, my life's so screwed up, and its been so difficult trying to get pple out to chill.
and i'm starting to have weird thoughts.
like shaving my hair.
going club on my own.
and even..
omg i dun dare to say it.
someone just wake me up alrights?
11:23 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
sighs.
this is really depressing.
so my fear really gonna come true. NUS: FASS
shit.
tell me this is not happening to me and its just a dream.
okays maybe all the while i'm dreaming.
but i really don't believe it.
if it's just because of PW.
thanks man ruby. thanks for destroying my hope.
even though my sup gave words of encouragement. that he thinks i'll have a chance to speak up, but i think its impossible.
if only this weekend i'm busy typing on the computer with a purpose instead of going on irc or playing silly facebook games and flooding the whole of facebook with my game scores.
appearing to be happy but will you ever know?
10:38 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
laptop's back at last!
have been disconnected with the world for like two weeks? since my last entry.
lols.
and i feel damn sian now.
cuz i heard alot of rumours.
dots.
anyway, daddy's back! from his 'long holiday' at st luke's. and we are all gonna get so busy with all the fuss. HAHA! i met yellowvan two times this week, good luck! well i certainly hope so. sianz.
hope there will be more yellowvans next week. really losing hope in everything now. haiz.
