was looking through photos. taken like in the past two years.
i think i really bloated. STOP EATING FAT PIG!
but looking at those pictures. those memories, i felt like going back to the past.
how did my life become so screwed?
i'm a player turned workaholic. a person who loves to organise activities turned lazy and even pon activities. a person who doesn't mind giving bday treats turned not even giving bday presents. a music lover turned wooden block.
ok or maybe not.
i think i really can't be bothered about alot of things, which i think made my life very miserable.
or maybe i cared too much, which made me miserable enough not to bother about them anymore.
or maybe whatever that has happened at home has made me super numb. unfeeling.
listening to the blog music on yuquan's blog makes me damn emo and sad.
yi ge ren sheng huo by ling fan. it's really super emo.
i think my life's destined to be alone.
because i can only see watch you being happy with some other girl(s).
do you even know that i cared?
_________________________________________ just played cello. it feels like years since i've touched it. more than half a year. i really want to go back to playing piano and cello. i really want.
